first relatively happ-ish day in

yesterday was the first relatively happ-ish day in a long ass time..
today i woke early- went back to bed though
feel blah
grammy’s this eve. i despise awards shows so much
but ap just emailed me that he’s having a party , might be fun.
i need to get out a bit more , i’m too lonely.
i had so much fun on monday,
should be an indication -
did a poster for trade last night
for lou’s bf, ‘judd’..whipped him up a mock movie poster.
in exchange for personal training…ughh
feel on the verge of being super down again..
don’t know whatt to do.
smoke?