blogger.com patrick's bday today i am so self obsessed..i call to wish him a happy bday and talk about myself the whole time. it's pissing rain, feel's like home. i can't decide if iam depressed or angry i know i'm confused it has everything to do with quitting smoking and a little to do with mercury.. 7 weeks w/out a cigarette i thought about having one(or a hundred and one) ALL weekend Lala almost got me to have one of her 'kool''s...??