good start
seems to be good start to today..first in a long ass time. got up at 7am cabin, urth saw chris r. and lou. nice -felt (feel) good going to pay gas bill and then take care of dwp…then work out perhaps.. very tenative as to mood etc. a and c are back, hmmm… last night […]
worked out like a fiend
just went to the gym..worked out like a fiend still felt fat , though listened to my messages (hadn’t for three days) oops wendy is really upset taking her out for dinner nice get -out-of-myself behaviour fuck i’m sooo bummed out still i don’t know what to do about anything i should just smoke and […]
patricks bday
blogger.com patrick’s bday today i am so self obsessed..i call to wish him a happy bday and talk about myself the whole time. it’s pissing rain, feel’s like home. i can’t decide if iam depressed or angry i know i’m confused it has everything to do with quitting smoking and a little to do with […]
NIGHT RIDER by the BEST DOORMAN EVER
Is this a familiar scenario? You’re standing in line outside what you hear is a cool club and the doorman, who looks like a complete asshole, is nodding in people who are infinitely less cool than you. Everyone seems to fucking know the guy. The longer you wait, the more incensed you are that you’ve […]
what a weird day
what a weird day one month w/out smoking one week since l and i ended it i have yet to cry(since being w/him) i feel dislocated from my feelings alittle bit of a relief, actually