Month: April 2001

a lil structure, perhaps?

so iam going to start having themes for my writing each day. or each week. i guess . noone else reads this, so it wil be about my experiments with myself and my life and my faith in myself.starting tonight:creating what i want…ie:manifesting.okay so, i’m going to do these affirmations .i am going to meditate […]

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Classics
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feeling

feeling much anxiety;like i do not know my place in the world and it scares me to no end. i wonder f it is the time of month coupled with my mom with everything else that is going down. i am going to be thirty in one month., that doesn’t freak me out. what freaks […]

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angry?

backsliding

this a.m. , i went to the lc, met s(new friend) there. he is very sweet. went to urth. feel less depressed. yesterday the hopeless factor was so high,it scared me. i felt like i was backsliding..into that pit i was in all winter. i still have some anger residing in me, but i ‘m […]

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bff’s no-more

old bf that hated me just emailed me back and was very kind and very honest about how much i had hurt her an dhow great, origanilly, our friendship had been. wow. AND..****and i talked about my financial sit. (or lack there of)-fearful, rightly so, i guess. because once again i am in need of […]

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of course , now

of course , now , as i am supposed to be on my way out..i am divinely inspired to do all this stuff to my site.whatevah

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Stories

btw-my old bff

btw-my old bf that emailed me the other day..i emailed her back and she hasn’t returned my email…hmmm she’s probably not online or something-has to go to her parents to use the computer, perhaps. maybe i’ll meet someone tonight at j’s. right.. i never do.cute player boy is not going to be there…so i don’t […]

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mom is here.

mom is here. she is sitting in the lving room ‘quilting’. we stayed in last night and ordered chinois.then later we walked up to stircrazy and got peppermint tea. nice. she likes my computer. stayed up and checked her email and stuff. i was exhausted(mental drain) woke up early and went up to virgin ms.then […]

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no link action

none of my links work..whoops. except the email one.ahhwell. something to do

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feel so tired and unmotivated

feel so tired and unmotivated. found out that cute guy from the morning mtg. is a bit of a player. roamer , he is. and seems to like m’s friend. ahh well. i’m not that worried about it. i just want to not be bored and boring all the time. sent some email today to […]

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changing and swirling

it’s all changing and swirling in my head. my thoughts are on overdrive. i read some great things today, but i am too poor at this to link or quote..so take my word for it-my best friend in the world from 12 till 23 emailed me tday. no big deal right? wrong. she hasn’t spoken […]

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3380683

ok, after having read samantha’s thought s on what a blog could/should/tries to do, ifeel like i need to follow her lead and have some sort of purpose or structure to what i aim to give/get from this here rambling series. let’s see..a mission statement will be my goal for myself today. that’s it. by […]

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Stories

urth for breakfast

went to urth this am w/ m. cute boy there. sooo cute. last week,at dinner, dp said that i was worse than any guy she knew in respect to checking people out.. hmm, i really never think of myself that way. but i guess i am . i mean i am single. but i ‘m […]

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