Archive for September, 2001
went to ns’s helped him set up computer.
he is having a hard time …he and k broke up on sunday and he is struggling to work through it. i admire him very much. he is trying to do the right thing for himself and ‘grrow’ for lack of a better term…
it’s awesome to watch and i feel really honored to be a support for him.
had dinner at lala’s w/mj ws hil and ss.
then ns and i rode up to the coffe house and met ab and ty..
ty lost many yesterday. 4 people on a plane..
so weird and sad and fucked up.
what is going to happen.
everything feels different.the way of the world is altered forever.protocal and boundaries are blown away.
i don’t know what to think ..how far ahead
not having a tv is good- i was at ie’s all day yesterday glued to it.
today feels more comfortable(my thinking, that is..)i am less scattered and more “in my body’ -if you will..
i guess the events of yesterday ,the HOROR of what happened, has sunk in somewhat- what i am really aware of right now is my foreigner-ness. i am having intense feelings to some of my closest friends reactions to it.
their seeming ignornance about intolarence and how the US is viewed.
i am NOT saying it is justifyed action on the US – it is definetly a henious inhumane violent terrible horrible tragic situation ….i am just aware of the fact that i am not born and raised here-and i have picked up a lot of perspective on how others see the us.
most of my family/friends in LA and ny haven’t had the opportunity to spend anytime outside of the western world for any lenghts of time and they get most of their ideas from cnn.
not that there is anything wrong with any of this-it’s just very interesting…
madeline Albright is amazing – hearing her speech yesterday made me feel a little hope for some peaceful moments-most of the other senators etc. were very quick and angr- she was thoughtful and open about grieving .
before she spoke of anger and retaliation she talked about the victims and families and devastation…and how the world needs to retaliate-with the us-to honor democract and all it has brung us.
it’s sometimes hard to realize an event like this could effect anyone and everyone DIRECTLY
seems so pious to think about filling in the details of my life over the last few days- today seems like a dream- the first call i got was from ie at 6;50am then i went to the lc and it was weird. eerie and grey…which in and of itself isn’t wierd,because the weather has been grey for a few days, but this am-prior to knowing what had happened, i noticed how light and cool the sky looked-all pink clouds on blue pre-sunrise sky…(red sky in morning..sailor take warning?)
everyone around me tday has had different reactions to this. i feel overwhelmed and powerless and scared and sad and …odd. sorta like the day jord died. like i am in a dream and i can’t quite grasp the totality of it all .
tired now-felt like a long ass day.
looking forward to going out this eve., which is not normal (of late, anyway..);Ajp is coming over at 7:30 and we’re going up the street. then to dinner and then party(?).. if i make it that far. i am still feeling kinda weak. this illness-whatever it is- is lingering in the most annoying way.had breakfast w/ cute boy this am. went to lcdp w/ j and the dawgs. it is soo hot up there during the day i think it’s best to go in the early eve.max the second is a dream . so sweet and relatively easy(for a puppy).crg moved in upstairs today.i hope he is cool and quiet…not another micheal flattley.
what a fucking fantastic weekend i have had….thursday eve i met jk ,ie,ab, liza ,lel and ag for dinner-then ie mjk ag and i went to crazy girls(??!!) it was really fun(ny) mjk is so much fun-then spent all day friday up at his house by the pool – swimming etc.then he cam e to rodeo with us -to hear lel speak-he was soo awesome-felt like a proud parent..mjk knew alot of people there-they all thought he was getting ‘sober”then the npalm for dinner-sat we spent the day at his house again-then had people over up there- for pizza and night swimming-fun.had coffe with hil this am-then mi and i cleaned the house and now i’m off to the airport to p/up my mom