Archive for October, 2001
nico’s bady this eve at le dome…euro trasho centralo…but i must say nico had quite the crew show uo for him- it was nice- bw and the boys dropped by later- ie and sl and hil and ad and rs and jg and ah etc were all there.
actually, ad and rs came outr last night to moomba and the lounge- which was fun. lots of girls around these days- i sure love it- never had this before.
i went with lou,(to nico’s) which was nice.
sat with micheal birnbaum, who i rreally enjoy
tomorrow night going to janes addiction YEAH
jeffry is picking me up at 7 30 am .best be going to bed.
so much fun stuff coming up- janes addiction, nico bady-lou’s bday-tool-hawaii…oh my goodness, i am excited.
this eve i have to go to a burberry store party w/ jg..but it will be over early -then dinner w/ah and hil(?) and then dancing!!
yeah.
i am so sad and angry i don’t know when this is going to stop i want to smoke more than i’ve ever wanted to do anyfuckingthing in my life.
i’m so gaddamned irratating.(oops freudian slip?meant to say irratated..)
i am supposed to be at ap’s grammy party, then to karaoke.
whatever..i’m still in my workout stuff.
it’s 11pm and i am obsessed with how i feel
i have been for a month.
this writing is definetly helping
Don’t know if i miss the boy or if i miss cigarettes, and i just “think” i miss the boy..?who knows.Have had no contact for quite some time
how can you spend every day with someone for months and confide in them and trust them and then just leave it all..no thankyous or apologies or truths or revelations
nothing
silence
makes me feel sad
and mistrusting of my feelings