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hmm. revelation of the day:i don’t think i should try to be part of ch’s life unless invited. i see my part in acting like a freak. i got overwhelmed with not smoking and not feeling ‘protected’ or whatever.. anyway i put alot of shit on him last night that he didnt deserve-at all. poor […]

mick jagger

ch and i went the set of mick jaggers video on sat night. to give him a bunch of teenage milllionaire shirts he loved them alot. cool. jg was the main girl in the vid. she looked great . had a nice visit with her.

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“The moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decisions, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have […]

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went to an awesome yoga class last night. really amazing. going running right now.the key for me is t keep busy and do a lot of excercise. i ahve to change my life completely or else i am doomed to smoke again or get fat and depressed.great dinner visit last night ss and ad lel […]

8593384

had such an awesome night. went for dinner with b and ss. he is soo awesome. unbelievabley cool and got his shit together..emotionally spiritually. it seems to me. we sat for two hours and sat and chatted about life etc. he’s got a website. i’ll find it and put up a link to it. he […]

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dont feel insane-feel invigorated. wlked down melrose. talked to bm. new ss for smoking. went for a little run . went to the bank w/ ch. got to see him for 1/2 hour. nice. not really worried abou that relationship anymore-if its meant to be it’ll be revealed or whatevr. i guess. over all the […]

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i am out of it. things are crazy in my body. i’ve slept sooo much over the last few days and feel weird. but im ok i guess. just trying to give up these stoopid things called cigarettes. feel pretty alone in the whole thing though. yuck. . i dont care though,

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interesting to see peoples true colors watching them make that choice …know they will always make that choice.

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almost done smoking fuck shit fuck hope i dont get fat. i wont. i will do yoga till i am a pretzel and run like the fucking wind.

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this is who i am dating…?!?click to see

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slept alot this weekend. got an email about doing these questions .kinda cool. went to minnie shouse for jo’s bday party. fun. alexandra cooked the best chili i have ever tasted. i want to move into that house. it is so cozy and warm . lala came up later. had a really good chat with […]

8453474

great day. jlh and i had an awesome talk about fears and levels of reality. how it is all not real. slept in abit- worked on ritas site. ch came over . fun. went to ameeting in the valley. funny.you go over mullhulland and it could be antwhere in the midwest or canada. fucking weird.. […]