Archive for March, 2002
weekend easter…going to malibu for lunch etc and speaking at 6 30 .
spent the night with ch and the met e at three and g . hate that meeting.
well… i dont hateit.. i just think it isnt for me.
mom here. .went to lunch with ns . then shopping.
last night we went to rodeo. good. cept i felt very emotional due to menstrual situation. ch was alright.not overly nice to me . i got fed up last night. i was at dinner and everyone was giving me a hard time…why didnt i ever invite ch to dinner etc…i was so embarresed. i dont knopw how to say he never wants to come. iand it sorta overwhelmed me. as i was talking to another person who knew ch well and they had “no idea he even knew me”..let alone dated me.
god that made me feel like i am a piece of something..so i went out there and told hiim what i wanted..to be full on or nada.
mom is here. good. she is staying with me…
mjk is off to arizona.i am teaching though still..at the loft.
ran this am. felt good as i havent run in days.
dont know if i should go to ps or not.dont feel too much like it but it could be fun for a day.
rodeo this eve, then ms party tomorrow. mom is going. perhaps i may leave her there and go have a date with boy.
ok so this week has been extrodinarry. monday 60 days off cigarettes.
ch was so sweet at the mtg. (rare) then to dinner with charlie finn and ns2 and jo. then to meet mjk at les duex..bad there bad scene. tuesday was good. i had so much fun with ch tues eve, we went for dinner and went to teh market and had a sleepover. then got up and went dwntwn early in the am and i watched him cut wood for buliding stuff. very sexy.
we have a nice time . he is good for me.met lala and ingrisd today -at cw’s store
cw asked me to help her with her computer ….
feel very vulnerable rightnow. i am sad about this week and all the events that have gone down-.i just miss dad -poor me
i just feel a pit in my tummy-really tired and pms i think.
full moon made me edgy and weird. swam naked with the girls and did yoga under the full moon. cool outside at the house. weird energy.