truelove?

re-read the truelove poem tonight. where is my hand ?????? fer fucks sake. bed without dinner

odd saturday

such an odd saturday. after ss left i have been alone and in a weird lonely state. ok though. i didnt reach out to anyone..so i must somehow need this alone lonely time. wrote some amends letters. feel sad about ie and ls. i hate it when people yell at me like that. i miss…
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loneliness has crept up on me today. this afternoon. the morning was good. great infact..but all of a sudden i am sad. lonely to be exact. i am in that stage of emppty nothingness lonely pit feeling. i dont know who to call what to do to make it go away. i imagine lying in…
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i dont like this

odd weird sad feeling has struck ..or crept up on me this saturday afternoon.awesome visit with mj at fred segal..lunch shopping (bought myself grossly overpriced sunglasses.)he bought me some awesome sexy perfume.ss came over later we shot the shit etc.but now i am here and it is sunny and inbetween day and night..nuthing to do…
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i am single

i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch. oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr…
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forensic files and sex

i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch.oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr dd…
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dentist hell today

dentist hell today. i have been so bad about writing in here.mjk is back…makes me happy.i actually missed him quite a bit.i am trying to think about what has happened of late..ryan is on the cover of t&c mag…whatever that means. weird.it was such a short time ago that she was sleeping on the floor…
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