Archive for October, 2004
spazmatics again . mj came , he loved it. so did tommy , but he left pretty quick- had an awesome visit with him, though. hes awe-sum
the lead singer is a stud.
he was macking on and being macked on all over the place.
ahh well.
such is the path of the rockstar..i dont know what sort of crack smoking delusional hypno spell i put myself under, fantasizing about nerd-cover-band-singer-dude, whom i thought was cute DESPITE the glaring facts : the whole “nerd” gear is part of an act, pornstars love the band and populate shows ..some undoubtably offer favours?AND ive never talked to?nor seen the guy out of costume.
-not to mention that i , of all people know what rockstars are ‘afforded’ once they have groupies- and these guys have em. what fun they are though. ill nurse my self out of this heartbreak to go see them again…that im sure of.
Well,at least im back in the crush market and not still shutdown completely anymore.
got to find new crushes.
anyone want to promote me – feel free.
or pass on ideas for crushes..i m a retard in this arena. for real.
almost died on friday night. fer real..no exaggeration.
dia and i were curious as to why so many cops were speeding(siren-less) by…So we decide to ‘follow’
dumb move
we cut a block below them to delongpre.thinking we can ‘see’ whats going on , up on hollywood from there.
duh.
we run right into the cause of the cop brigade:
Huge guy comes flying (running) towards us..he hesitates when he sees us and goes in his pants to pullo ut his gun.
and starts angling towards us…as if to get in the car.
holy shit..i dont even really remember much of this..but i know i was trying desperatley to lock the doors(?) cept i just kept rolling down and up the windows and UNlocking the doors( ne w car..)
then the police were behind and infront and aabove (chopper)
and the ‘fugitive’ (or perp?) takes off – away from us..
then there is the screaming cops and we are frozen and inch forward and there is some big standoff to our right with more guys and guns drawn and i dont know what to do..one cop is screaming for us to get out of there..but there is no where to go till one guy see us and helps us back onto hollywood..and it was over.
woah.
spazmatics this eve .
duwde.they are so awesome..i think by my next statement i am officially proving the theory:”doesnt matter what he looks like..if he is in a band..chicks dig him”
the singer is hot.
flood pants to the upper belly neckbrace sex gawd.
i would luv to makeout with him ( not onstage), … if you know me…this is a bold statement .
im very secretive and picky about who i like..which is usually no-one or someone ill never meet etc…
mostly because this one time :
i dated someone;
it was a long long time ago- but i can never forget what it felt like to
realize it was all a lie.yuck. awful. i believe people to easily-
but im sick of being ‘safe’ so im looking for a few good crushes..seems safe to start with this geeky one.
he must be straight …no way he could emit that much hetro- hotness through that gear..probably has a girlfriend.
oh shit what do i know.
well i know 1 thing:
i do NOT know him,
yet.
watch out hot geek
drove out 2 zuma early am.
beautiful drive up the back route through the canyon…
felt sureal.then beach side down. went to d’s soccer game -guess who was there?jk
nice surprise!!
its so funny how you forget how much u misss people till re-united.
what does that mean?
anyway..then dealt with volvo stuff…OH YEAH i bought(almost….part down) a new xcv70
yippee…
navy out/’taupe’ in
leath-ah ..woohoo
then home little down time till headed over to the doggielamma’s :from here, dloh and i drove out to redlands(?) university to see the used…we had a fun drive out.he drove my white rental pacifica…we get along much better when i dont drive.
bought cds listened to the cure (formerly known as:the queer)
amongst others..then drove around campus looking for the shoew.
so college-ish-y weird not familiar.met brandons girlfriend -who GAVE me shwag…very cool.
shirts are fuckin funny..especially to me:
bert is my homeboy in same style etc as tm.
the used rule by the way.
RE-EDITwednesday night
dp and i went to ‘the untitled jc’ premiere at the silent movie theatre;awesome spot for parties premieres btw.great turnot and everyone seemed to love it. way to go jeff
afterwards( and a quick nie ab visit) ran out to my house- shot the shit.nice.
then went to the avalon to see the hip (thats the tragically hip-for noncanadians)
got there typical d and a style- hours late so that although on the list, we were not allowed in- they had ‘shutdown’
…..but,shady as i am at times.. i faked almost crying so well….that the guy at the door snuck us in.
i cant believ i wasnt even going to go to this…..sweet dp set it up with df and got me there- she was excited to see the U2 of canada.
dude.
as we walked in – i had a birds eye view straight to gord downie -in his buttondwn shirt red bandana -doing his unique shuffly dance around to ‘neworleans is sinkin’
fuck’in’eh. saw two leafs jersey’s within 3 seconds of entering.
was so moved by the crowd and the performance. flet so canadian in a good(gay) way.
- all the stuff he sings about is what i feared never escaping- public radio -primeministers-englishness-cold -damp static memories- CBC intro music – ‘as it happens’ , memories of winter nights : my mom making tofu stirfry ,listening to barbara frum loud-as we set the table and begged silently to watch tv…differnt strokes,3′s company..anything- rainy damp nights waiting for dad to come home so we could have him turn on the tv-only to realize it was saturday-not loveboat for us:it’s hockey night in canada- don cherry-so depressing-
i wanted palmtrees skateboarding boys with tans and flippy white blonde hair.with names like todd-(morgan?)
none of these ski jacketed-stick yeilding -dull brown pastywhite canadian boys named gord or pierre,who smoked pot between hockey and soccer.
and listened to rush and iron maiden.ugh.
now i have a pit in my stomach…
But last night was a trip because it was like being at a reunion with a select few kids who got out.
everyone was reveling in each crtcmention of ‘our parents prime minister” late breaking story on the CBC”
dia was fascinated.
she asked ‘is this what a hockey game is like?” and all the boys in bball caps and button down over a tshirt
all cannadian getting drunk on beer and feeling the power of gords words& voice and the bands canadian awesome-ness.
we are the wheat kings and pretty things…
i had the shivers 309 times. and was randomly talking to people about it as though we all went to high school together.
it was hockey night at the avalon.
fuckin eh
i am renting a car again.unreal. this is un believable almost.i have not been able to buy a car with cash in hand good( well…maybe not good perse;but not bad )
dossier of all my accounts.funds i receive bills i pay…etc etc
everyone i know willing to cosign . it all boils down o the canasdian thing
its not transferrable to be canadian. jeezuz christ. i cant believe i am shelling out more cash for temporary shit . AGAIN.
i feel like crying.
ok ok think good thoughts…
sunday night ms took me to air w/ the la phil.
it was awesome, despite my unmotivated state prior to going.
stereolab-first( i was theonly one to enjoy them…she is actually quite annoying- in a natalie merchant sort of way.
but air with the raddest drummer i have ever seen(jf excluded..;) )
he was so stylie like.
lots of weird run-ins there that night-tim c. calling me by the awful apc moniker…he is funny that guy.
craig (from tool)was the tour manager, i think the guitar tech was matt, if im not mistaken( from apc tour)
pete &t were there,as was ms.r. so weird to go to a show like that and feel all anonymous and see groups of people from yor life you would NOT expect there.
rambling to kill angst now. its working.
went out to the new”guys’ on wed.
lf nin,and a fun-ish.
cept lf’s most recent ex showed up so she was setback .
wen tto dloh’s after w/ a. took him treats saw the doggielamma
going to fucking well buy a car today.
fuck fuck fuck
ok
oh yeah work is petering out.
kinda stressed about that.
universe mantras today:
i have an amazing new car and lots of awesome fun jobs.
thankyou and good morning.