Archive for February, 2005
its crazy how i feel right now. fuckin wild. i havent felt this sort of energy in years. i feel so lost.
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its sunny. its soooooooo nice. i feel light again-
holy shit weather realy really depresses my system..if LA keeps having vaancouver-esque winters..im going to have to go further south..But today its all perfect for me.
minus powerbook failure. more on this later.
much potential work on the horizon…waiting to find out on a few from this weekend.
my new camera is rad:
is this irony or freakiness or what ?
out of the kazillion things i’ve thought of since..say, last saturday…my ex boyfriend, Joel fitz , has been on my mind ..t just random thoughts thunk;
probably because ive been chatting with lc of late and it got me thinking to way back when we met ( lc and i) and where i was in my life ( dating jf..who introduced me to lc)
ANYWAy…so there is piece one…1=spotty thoughts of jf.
Piece 2 consists of this book that keeps coming up, i didn’t have a clue what it was about, The tipping point , or who wrote it..but then i aimlessly meandering thru listings of SXSW speakers and i came across the Author’s pic . .piece 2.1= i had dinner with baby C and she was raving about the second book Blink.
kept saying i was going to check it out..
cut to..this eve hills and i go to the groove around 7pm..apple store, etc..then i decide to stay late cause i know the bookstore (B et N?Blech) is open late..i go up and peruse code and design books and recall the aforementioned book-i bought it…get home..start reading… and by the second page he is referencing above forementioned exBF jf …..
all my life’s a circle..sunrise to sundown with people coming round again…..with every page i turn.( totally coped from harry chapin )
my G5 wont start. i may kill . i ran software update slast night . restarted…grey screen… apple logo……spinning …then the fan starts wheezing…revving higher and higher…( ive NEVER HAD A PROBLENM W/ THE FAN SOUND ETC)
so i did all fixes i could think of:
reset the pram ..
started up from startupdisk w/c
same as above w/ external cd drive
t drive on laptop( it came up no prob..?)
damn it all . nuthing the san ebehaviour each time.,
im bummed .
and dangerously frustrated
Then the power in the house blew. all of it.
and did i menton my heat is off..has been for months…gas company visits
were useless.
landlord wont respond.
well one problem just solved;electrician via yellow pages told me today is dooms day
and that the world is ending.
oh, and restored power.
interessant, no?
the worst feelings for me::
being lied to …and knowing it at the point the lie is being told.
being angry at people that dont deserve your energy
being misunderstood, and/or misinterpreted
calculated meanness masked as thoughtlessness/laziness
being condescended to (s’that proper?)
being lied to- and knowing it as it happens….or did i say that already.
i have been fighting rage all day-Everything is causing me to feel so much anger -
Really stupid shit
-my cousin upstairs-people knocking on the door-my phone ringing-driving-parking-work
OH yeah..AND once again…
my stupid choices for friends.. how many times do i get given the same situation till i see it before i get bit??
well , to be fair, i have awesome friends in general-its just the ones on the side i pick up that others are leary of always..and i defend till im left in the dust shaken by their deceitful personalities( laughable one , this time,at least)
geez i must be Pmsing.
.had mellow weekend
freese baby bday was cancelled due to rain, so i met dloh at mels..
we had a fun time. he was in awesome form.
i was laughing so hard and we stayed through 3 tables changeing behind us.
When he is on a roll, i can listen to his banter forever..except when he embarresses me….Case in point:
i saw a guy i thought was tom sizemoore..i was actually sure it was him…BUt ofcourse..danny knew better, par usuale… and to prove it to me he kept yelling TOM in the restaurant…so every-gdamn-one turned around, except “tom sizemoore”, of course.mortified me.( and he is one of the good friends..)
The canadadian in me still kinda weirded oot when at such a restaurant and i see all the tourists with maps and serious glints in their eyes ,as they look( sureptisiously..or so they think) for jennifer aniston or billy zane(?who??where’d i pull that name from..)
hollywood life funny.
but i did have an awesome early am. went to mels woth dloh and laughed a t his antics ( hf’s bday was cancellec)
i am wide AWAKE so early again its bizarre.
i have many things i could be doing, but im looking through design magazines
(not g.design, interior stuff)
josh ( upstairs neigbhour)fixed my electricity last night!i have had the worst faulty outlets since moving to this place in 1999. now not only can i turn lights on via their switches,..but he showed me how things worked and were wired, which is always fun for this dork.
i love that shit, And he has a special toolkit with soldering iron which i must find a use for at once.
lastnight had awesome dinner with hils df and mw .missed the babyc, but she was otherwise occupied visiting cheyenne, i believe.
was OG 101 table.
awesome day on monday w/ lel. he came over in the am , w.his computer but didnt have powersource( he thought id have one for it)
so both of in shitty stress moods..went out to melrosemacgot one then met jk at 101..and had funny long lunch together.then went back to my house and sorted out his computer and hd problemo’s
he made me the awesomest playlist ever.
damn i have a good core group of people ..i always forget how funny they are , too.
jk has been extra funny last few days.
picked em up after the movies ( they went .i was at dinner) drove them home as they walked down…i was laughing a lot. it make s me happy when they r happy.