Archive for April, 2005
A habit is a pattern of behavior acquired by repetition. Psychologists and behavior experts say that it takes about 20 to 70 days to form a new habit.
(from “the 10 minute guide to getting organized”By Janet Bigham Bernstel, Stephen Windhaus)
Tres interessant, non?
So, it only takes a few weeks, if this theory is correct, to become addicted…to anything?
its seems so simple when you try something new or start a new ‘habit’ without meaning it to be a ‘habit’ ..like having a cup a coffee one moring..when you havent ever been a coffee drinker- but one a.m. its presented and drunk enjoyed and ..associated?…probably because of outer crcumstances..not cause the coffee was so great..you were in a really great fun conversation..or something cool happens and your happy horomones kick in … and subsequently coffee is forever associated with the emotion felt.
what the hell am i talking about ?
im either loney bored or both?
i think im lacking in crushes again. i have to find new ones.
let me know if you think of any or think you could be one.
come on
i think im lacking in crushes again. i have to find new ones.
let me know if you think of any or think you could be one.
come on
sunday night came and went. 2 of the ranger neighbours came this eve; which, coupled with the fact that they( the dragonfly) opened a huge new room; made for less agro pushing and shoving …what a relief.its really asinine how protective ive become of dance space .
im a full on cockblocked groupie , i guess.
i am so frustrated right now. tring to set things up for sites and not working prpoerly and head feels like a mac truck hit it. fingers wont type and someone tookmy last coke,fuckers
touchy subject ahead:
ive been writing online since along time ago.
nothing noteworthy. just exhibisionist style ramblings about nothing.
some things have gotten me in shit, by mistakenly being read by the wrong eyes.
but…in general, over the long haul..its been cool ; sometimes therapy ,sometimes purgeing sometimes collecting my thoughts. sometimes being an exhibisionist
to no one on nothing.
but lateley ive made a rather large lifestyle choice that is seeming to be worth documenting on here..because getting clear unbiased objective thoughts on its effects is not possible.
You see.. i was sober ( abstinant from all mind altering thingyies) for over 6 years.
i m involved in a large community of sober people..all finding& helpingeachother to a way out of some lifestyle into a another.
usually one with deeper personal meaning , on all levels.
nothing hocusy pocusy..just how to live a life outside the trappings of selfcentered thinking.
it is a remarkable undescribable community that is filled with my friends and family.
over the last year i had a shift..not bad, just started to peice my own ideas and thoughts together for the first time as an adult, with self esteem…and came to some awesome and scary realizations for myself.;
i wasnt growing anymore..i had shut my openvalve and was spitting out dirty water overflow…nothing new coming in on the personal developement front.
i felt stagnant..so i tried to reasses..and do certain formulaic prescriptions.
no need to go over the process..as it was mostly an internal evolution that brought me to a galss of champagne at a moet party during fashion week.
nothing right?
well, with the way my life is setup and my relationships work..this glaass of moet altered things.
some were small tilts of alteration..others seem to be big old boulder toppling avalanche style alterations.
lots of nuances involved.things are changeing in my relationships , to say the least.
getting it?
i have lots of rad coolfriendships that i have made during my sober years..what i realized last year was…i had became a. the sober girl from canada..you know friends with xxx and xyx?
oh yeah the sober girl.
ahah.
this got me.
touchy subject ahead:
ive been writing online since along time ago.
nothing noteworthy. just exhibisionist style ramblings about nothing.
some things have gotten me in shit, by mistakenly being read by the wrong eyes.
but…in general, over the long haul..its been cool ; sometimes therapy ,sometimes purgeing sometimes collecting my thoughts. sometimes being an exhibisionist
to no one on nothing.
but lateley ive made a rather large lifestyle choice that is seeming to be worth documenting on here..because getting clear unbiased objective thoughts on its effects is not possible.
You see.. i was sober ( abstinant from all mind altering thingyies) for over 6 years.
i m involved in a large community of sober people..all finding& helpingeachother to a way out of some lifestyle into a another.
usually one with deeper personal meaning , on all levels.
nothing hocusy pocusy..just how to live a life outside the trappings of selfcentered thinking.
it is a remarkable undescribable community that is filled with my friends and family.
over the last year i had a shift..not bad, just started to peice my own ideas and thoughts together for the first time as an adult, with self esteem…and came to some awesome and scary realizations for myself.;
i wasnt growing anymore..i had shut my openvalve and was spitting out dirty water overflow…nothing new coming in on the personal developement front.
i felt stagnant..so i tried to reasses..and do certain formulaic prescriptions.
no need to go over the process..as it was mostly an internal evolution that brought me to a galss of champagne at a moet party during fashion week.
nothing right?
well, with the way my life is setup and my relationships work..this glaass of moet altered things.
some were small tilts of alteration..others seem to be big old boulder toppling avalanche style alterations.
lots of nuances involved.things are changeing in my relationships , to say the least.
getting it?
i have lots of rad coolfriendships that i have made during my sober years..what i realized last year was…i had became a. the sober girl from canada..you know friends with xxx and xyx?
oh yeah the sober girl.
ahah.
this got me.
trying to fixx the csssssss
touchy subject ahead:
ive been writing online since along time ago.
nothing noteworthy. just exhibisionist style ramblings about nothing.
some things have gotten me in shit, by mistakenly being read by the wrong eyes.
but…in general, over the long haul..its been therapy via purgeing my thoughts.
to no one on nothing.
but lateley ive made a rather large lifestyle choice that is seeming to be worth documenting on here..because getting clear unbiased objective thoughts on its effects is not possible.
You see.. i was sober ( abstinant from all mind altering thingyies) for over 6 years.
i m involved in a large community of sober people..all finding& helpingeachother to a way out of some lifestyle into a another.
usually one with deeper personal meaning , on all levels.
nothing hocusy pocusy..just how to live a life outside the trappings of selfcentered thinking.
it is a remarkable undescribable community that is filled with my friends and family.
over the last year i had a shift..not bad, just started to peice my own ideas and thoughts together for the first time as an adult, with self esteem…and came to some awesome and scary realizations for myself.;
i wasnt growing anymore..i had shut my openvalve and was spitting out dirty water overflow…nothing new coming in on the personal developement front.
i felt stagnant..so i tried to reasses..and do certain formulaic prescriptions.
no need to go over the process..as it was mostly an internal evolution that brought me to a galss of champagne at a moet party during fashion week.
nothing right?
well, with the way my life is setup and my relationships work..this glaass of moet altered things.
some were small tilts of alteration..others seem to be big old boulder toppling avalanche style alterations.
lots of nuances involved.things are changeing in my relationships , to say the least.
getting it?
i have lots of rad coolfriendships that i have made during my sober years..what i realized last year was…i had became a. the sober girl from canada..you know friends with xxx and xyx?
oh yeah the sober girl.
ahah.
this got me.
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