Archive for August, 2005
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i guess im going to a party this eve.
downtown, even..IN A LOFT..woohoo. big urban nite for me, being the creature of hollywood based habit and all.
it sounds great actually, as ztrip is djing and i love me some ztrip. he is my fav.
he mixxes funny shit.
morty is getting pretty kickass these days too.but back to the party…
nico sent the invites, sobe x games?
at a loft, and ,as i mentioned ..downtown LA..
ab is coming with, to insure good times.
i hope she’s coming, actually..she was supposed to have been here ages ago. but im just being LA event conscious..
As in :
if too many people are planning to go to an event..it’ll get shut down by the firemarshall..and seeing as everyone i know including neighbours seems to know of the party..well. most wont go downtown, though..so we’ll see.
im bring camera so i ll post pics …l8tr
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Perhaps i have insomnia?, add?, lack of something….but for some reason
..i ended up staying up way too late even though im exhausted…and perusing local blogs. i dont do this often anymore..seemed for awhile it got to be less interesting when every teenager in asia started a blog and id somehow end up on those…but with recent discover of local community rolls..a la ‘lablogs‘ etc etc…i got to looking and reading..some really fuckin awesome sites . blogs with the same base purpose and enjoyment that i have..which i like..not monitary based,..and not ‘contrived’… more outlet based.
Funnily , the one i ended up reading the longest was Tom Greens, i’d seen it last year some time..xmas i think.. and i remember liking it alot, but as i tend to do..i forgot about it..but there it was tonight on blogebrity, i believe..and as i ve been feeling homesick-ish as of late..it was comforting to read. First cause he’s canadian ..and because hes been writing from up there( sakatchewan , and ottawa to be exact,) and one of the first blurbs i read..he referrenced Farely Mowat damn! that got me.wolves and owls…tres canadianne
i forgot how much i loved those books.
and he got to meet Jean Chretian, and it just had a lovely canadian tone.. down to hanging with his parents (sorta) playing trivial pursuit .
he just seems like a nice smart grounded boy. *but then again i seem alot of things via this that i dont think i am in real life…oh what do i know?..im definetly over tired, dude.*
anyway..its a great site.
all this perusing got me thinking , too..about how weird & common “blogging” is….
DISCLAIMER: i am about to do ‘back when i started blogging” thing..but its not meant to be a condescending or territorial..just observatory and speculative ..allright?k..
so..carry on my wayaward sons:
Back when i started doing this ( writingnotes/journal at taintme)it was really trully small and sorta secretive loser-ish community. i didnt know one single other person (in the flesh, that is; i knew online people)-who wrote online or had ‘blogs’…But now:its a totally different ‘thing’ , blogging is. Lots and lots of people i know and am related to even, write online..
i wonder sometimes, what the hell i could have done with mine – had i had foresight or motivation..
oh well. i love it still.the outlet is irreplaceable and as it stands taintme has become my secret soapbox, private journal, crush keeper, gossip outlet and theraputic-confidant. its the most consistant ritual ive had in in my adult life. this ..blog thing taintme.
it has directly caused me: to lose friendships, total embarrasment, gotten me a date, ( ONE…and it sucked)
broughtme closer to family members, made me a few new friends..and lots of other random attributes i cant remember . so thats kewl.
next order of my mind:
i feel directionless right now. like im swimming in my life , but its a wading pool. and its really hot out..so i just stay in the water cause its cooler..and sorta easier..albeit getting increasingly more uncomfortable.. I just tread water to avoid getting out and having to deal.’
kinda a bad analogy..but im overtired and the visual is working for me. forgive.
i wonder how i can change things now. i dont like this holding pattern at all , as of this week.
its so weird how i have tiny revelations over nothing ( seemingly) and all of a sudden my life doesnt work for me anymore.
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i am frighteningly single maintainent. meaning: no crushes of any depth( ?).. or reality…is more like it.
AND..(thids is whats awful) no foresight into future spots for finding any.potential.. …i mean its awesome fun to go out dancing. or to go to the roosevelt, see people etc..But , i do not meet potential dates at spots like this..its never been like that for me..i always seem to meet people within familial circles..or work.
seeing as i work for 2 married people, thats out.
and all my family of friends are tapped.ie: i know all the extended branches of potential single cute boys.
its weird that i feel this ‘lack’ so strongly these last few weeks. I think im lonely. ugghhhh.
i can’t believe i said that. but i believe its true.i know it is..Cause i turn the tv on for noise, which is something that is a tell tale sign pour moi.
fuck. that sucks. i guess this means i must change something in my life.more yoga. yes..but no.
not for socializing.
move?
i dont know.
im bored of myself, because my werk seems to consist of my os, me and my head..and then home is kinda the same. and even though i dont want the past relationships(ahem) back.. i do feel the gapping hole of another person around.
do i sound pathetic? i dont feel pathetic. just …..i dont know.
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its hot out. but what makes it hotter is the screaming hassidic woman that lives in front of me. its unreal ..TOTALLY ..unreal.She screams ALL DAY.. in a terriffiying-shrill-higher-as-she-gets-rolling-pitch.
Its been going on since she moved in. ( 2.5 years)
its awful.
devasting , actually.
Somedays i can tolarate it. on others, i feel like killing …
..and days like today, i feel upset and claustrophaubic.
it really makes me want to move. she seriously does it at all hours of every day.
This is the tip of the iceberg on this woman by the way..She has done other things taht are so unbelievabel..i cant be bothered to write about.
She has two kids and a husband..whom all seem frightened of her.
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I am overwhelmed with tiredness, and mad knowledge- i learned alot in a short time…( i was sorta temping for someone i really would like to work for fer real..and i astounded myself with my (unbeknow-ed to me)ability to absorb..I guess it has to do with being interested in what i was doing,huh?
so afterwards i got motivated to write..and write i did.. much (and quite well i might ad..)Only to have it all gone…
poof. fuck that shits lame and its always when i wrote ‘the piece’…The one that i feel like is the jumping off point