Archive for September, 2005
the title means nothing. it just sorta combines the spackling of thoughts and stuff that flew through my life today.
So you should probably stop reading right now , unless you’re sooo bored that u think u can handle the crazy train im on this am – this post is going nowhere…but im doing an excercise of writing for twenty minutes a day..regardless of what i write. . so goodbye or buckle up and en-yoy.remember :you’ve been warned:
My Synchronicity study : is it real? or is it Hollywood?
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music is.
best ever.
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it trumps every other bestever everytime.
bestever food, boys. .friends boyfriends..and anything …
EVER.
it is so awesome, that i wish i could crawl into some songs and just live there.
”where’s allison living these days?
oh she’s moved to that peter gabriel song , somewhere in us or your eyes”.
That would be awesome. like the aHa video. how rad. m theory? 11th dimension..well i think this is the twelth.
certain songs come with not just feelings ands landsacapes in my minds eye; but whole universes with dogs and houses and familys and streetlights and alot of other stuff.
fuck westside rentals, im looking on itunes for a new pad.
breakfast w/d at ihop was a surprisingly nice start to a productive day …
But,to be fair to my recent pessimistic nature, i must give precedence to bad news (sorry):
After my hearty all-american ihop breakfast of a bacon cheese burger, i (as a canadian and former vegitarian ) was forced to became aware of how bitter sweetly american ive become, eh?
case inpoint:
my new fuckin food groups:
meat
cheese
and
fried bread.
gross..yes.
addicting..and overwhelming? duh?!.
it seems that in the last two weeks i have finally tried and ( as i feared), come to lust the 2 much advertised, very processed and yet oh soo fucking gdamned savory, american delicacy’s…( oxymoron?):
The bacon cheese burger
and The (Mighty) corn dog*.
god help me.
in all 8 years here in this fine processed land,
i dont think i’ve ever had either …prior to lately.
now im super fucked.
and/or super fat ( soon)
damn. my male friends are sabatoging me.
on a -lighter(pun intended) note…i got a ton of shit done today
and it feels so good.
i wont bore the page with details, but sufficed to say : i kicked ass and my actions all added up to a satisfed sufficient human level of self worth , for me.
i m coming to realize the things i like to do..and am pretty adept at doing-although not exactly spectacular or glamourous – are seemingly necassary tasks that others loathe; which is a good thing (for me)
if only i could package these tasks .
yeah right . packaging isnt part of my forte.
oh well. as long as i string together the satisfying tasks and b.o.s*, it will all work owt.
But for right now …im ok ur ok and we’re all (fill in blank_to win ipod)
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….from my ass.
i had fun lasnight. went to d’s and hungot w/ c. website stuff. feels good to be of service. started to feellike there is some order in my chaos. must continue with the organizing of thoughts and shit. and if i havent mentioned this of late, i love the
foofighters
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k.FINALLY got up and went to lc this am.had breakfast with the cute boy.
hmmm.rejuvenating and inspiring (to get me to more of these morning meetings)
feel kinda hungover today. going to an engagement party for dr and c.
have no real idea who will be there..as in :who i will know.
feel nervous, but am so tired it’ll be okay.
hoping french friends will be there.
a and c will be there, i’m sure.
daniel. , too which is good fun.
won’t be uncomfortable .
god i feel really dehydrated or something. just weird. not too bad.
{taintme}
just got off the phone w/ nb, she got a new s. wow. my feelings weren’t even hurt.
i just helped where i could. told her to pray to whoever she thought was out there to help her get through this perod.i am so glad i made an amends to her. feel helpful .
took max over to cb and he got soo much attention, i even got some guys # for potential work- through the dog!
feel a bit ‘off’ still…had to have a nap this afternoon. but definetly much moh bettah than past few days.
max is trying to get my attention with his bone thingy ..
had a great time w/ ajp .lnite. mj joined us . as did j. but it was good to just hang with ajp for awhile.
i think he’s really happy with l. gives me hope that i can find that someday(?)
just got back from brkfast w/many versions on cuteboys.
very intresting -had a great visit with A
lc2 this am .
ajp met me there ; it was just like oldtimes(last week?)
went to urth for coffee. lak met us there. feel kinda exhausted-as dog and neighbours woke me up at 4 & 5 am. n was just here going over the site. no content yet.just design stuff. fine with me.
i need to get more organized, that will be my goal for my thirties-to become an organized person…
talking to my cousin on the phone; he is so great. i’m so happy we are connecting these days. when we were little we hated eachother. i even have teeth marks on my back from him biting me…we were in the same class all through school and he was a bit geeky..and i was a bit bitchy; as in…i’d pretend i didn’t know him and he’d tauntme…
okay – i am so sick and i really wanted to start this off right..so i’ll have to start manana
i think i have them alot. i get an idea in my mind and because i think about it so much, i believe it to be true.
anyway, today it was this: living here is a bit like being in highschool. you can be cool and popular one day then it all turns on you the next; now..what isn’t true about this statement? well it is not ‘here’ perse that this is true …it is everywhere..it about who you choose to be friends with that dictates whether or not this is your reality.
it just seems more magnified down here with the extra elements of guestlists and casting directors, i guess.
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