Archive for November, 2005
q#2;describe your father:what was he like whe u were a child?as u grewup?
my dad was very kind and gentle as i got older, but as a child he was very gruff and grumpy and distant, i was scared of him till i was about 18. he wasn’t that present in my life(although my parents were always married)he was a workaholic- i remember him as happiest when other grownups were around-at parties etc.
he sometimes doted on me as a child-told me i was just like him-i loved that-
he was extra tough on my little brother-as i grewup he grew more passive and gentle-
Boyfriend Arm Pillow a sales success
hmm, i dunno, but at the rate im going, and the way i view ‘relationshits“
this is a smart way to feed the pms-y mis-guided want of cuddle , perhaps.
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What would you do with your life if…
• You won $1 million?
• You had to return to college to get a four-year degree?
• You won $1,000 a week for life?
• You lost your present job?
• You had a disability that prevented you from walking?
• You had six months to live
if someone gave me my million( see: example of possitive affimation..i know i have it..just not in hand at present!)
i would:
pay back my mom what i owe her.
hire someone to manage my money and bills.
-because i am not good at this. i can open the bills..note the date due…get the check write it…but NEVER mail it. i mean its ridiculous: i usually always have the money in my accounts… i just have a weird mental block. maybe i dont like parting with money .
yep. i think thats it.
ask a few friend s to go away with me for a week. ( so be nice to me friends)
depends on time of year and my mentality at the time as to where though.
)if i had to return( ?) to college for a four year program:
i would get a tutor, knowing that i am years out of school and my dyslexia is a well documented thing…welll lets just hope i dont have to- im not good in a full on forced learning scenario.
but to answer the original question:
art. fine art and design. archetecture i think for sure. maybe landscape architecture.
if i won 100o dollars a week for life:
be annoyed that i didnt have the lump sum, then hourd it for a few months and do the above mentioned tactics from q.#1
if i lost my present job: not applicable.
if i had a disablity that prevented me from walking?
i would hopefully become a prolific writer..and be at peace wiith myself regardless.
if i had six months to live:
go see my brother and mom
write a book about what i knew thus far in life.
try and get lots of dinners in with friends.
basically just spend alot of the time enjoying my friends and family and writing.
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when you thin your life out , via separating yourself from certain friends and associates…and consciously choose to withdraw from situations that seem to have caused you grief…its a good thing.
Mostly.
i am used to 120 friends and phone calls a day ….and in the great cleanout of 2005 it has dropped remarkably..( 100 percent for the better..as most of those calls were annoying timesuckers and led to drama and chaos that usually wasnt mine…but somehow always drew me in)
… now i am contacted , perhaps 5 times a day and 3 of those are usually work.
which is great and a total feat for my codependant self….
Except when..you are bored and/or lonely. (not lonely like crying miserable codependant lonely…more subtle )
.and this will happen when you clean out the clutter… .
because see, the new life has these moments of deadair , which are fine and probably very healthy..
it just seems that at the quietest and hollowest of these longer moments .. i am most vulnerable to falling in and back…ie:making a call’ just to see whats up’ with old so-and-so.….never a good idea, im finding out..cause its always the same….
sure the old aquaints can fill my deadair up ;
even make me feel great for a few minutes….but soon enough they are trying to pull me back in….
via telling me their stories of chaos and betrayl- that are usually the exact same as last year…but always very very important and real to them and all of a sudden seemingly real to me….
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people who refer to me as ‘babe’ and i ve never met them before today and i work for them..suck.
super tired but cant sleep ,im wide awake its 7am and i dont have t be anywhere for like…hours. ugh
in the midst of being pissed off. have to miss yoga because of frickin work. fuclkkkkkkkkk
think i need a little yoga, fer christs sake.
i am angry.
ok. got to get over it.
i am grateful for:
my computers
flash 8
transmit
this outlet
music and headfones
money from work
yoga (when i get to go)
ok i still feel pissed but a bit better
think i need a little yoga, fer christs sake.
i am angry.
ok. got to get over it.
i am grateful for:
my computers
flash 8
transmit
this outlet
music and headfones
money from work
yoga (when i get to go)
ok i still feel pissed but a bit better