Archive for December, 2005
im fairly bored these days…and as i am truely boycrazy and there doesnt seems to be any boys to be crazy about around me…i adapted the ‘boyfriend application” from somewhere – so as to be more me/la/friendly…
if u feel excited by the thought of me and carrot cake and gingerale…. …GO HERE and send to me. asap.
be anonymous if you want. i dont care .
i apologize for the rant in previous post- it came from realizations that were alltogether overdue, on my part. and plus it felt good to be pissy fer a sec.
so its december 30th and im planless for nye.which is fine..as i slept the last 2 nyeves. and i cant stand the build up for nights such as this. its alwys a let down.
but im bored and actually kinda wish i was doing something uberfun. maybe i will still.
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how come i got fuckin burned when the shit hit fan? your fucking friends(?) dont know me nor, it seems do you.
dont g-damn reason with me anymore. i m over it. i m sick of being OK with it all and swallowing the shit. fuck u . stand up for me. i m a fucking good friend – stop having such a limited memory when it comes to goodness/ intentions/ …at very least i dont deserve to hear , over xmas what you fuckin said about me . FUCK-U . its one life we have assholes. one. fuck ur career. we are the same. dont be so g-damn cruel-i am devastated. you ‘re behaving just the way u say u hate.
what makes you so different?
if u have a problem -give me a reason to my face you fucking piece of shit.
be a good person – - i know i am and neither one of us deserve to be taken for granted.. at least pratice what you profess or stop preaching.
im not your scape goat, and you know the fuck who you are.
en-yoy . and yes, virginia, weezer is awesome. its ok to like them.
(r & m: shutit- i dont want any lip from you…the eels are good-plus its xmas-open your musical minds already..SHeeesh!)
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merry christmas even if you dont do the xmas thing….
try to do this:
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its the night before christmas… and all are away. im happy today- part in parcel for no serious obligations- part because yesterday was tough on my emotions..but i persevered(sp?) and beleive i came out with flying colours. also cause tomorrow will be fun- having dinner at cs’s down at the beach- and old from-home friend will be there( and cooking) i havent seen said friend in a looonnng time. will be interesting.
also i like my new venting ground/sounding board : the emo thug ( his term) aka seanny cash. very funny fellow.
Dear hollywoord types:
why dont you take a break from myspace(isgay,btw) and expose your coldplay listening selves to rad music suggestions via my new favorite online person.
go now: he’s funny AND canadian.( but not ‘canadian’ in the hollywood way)
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en-yoy . and yes, virginia, weezer is awesome. its ok to like them.
(r & m: shutit- i dont want any lip from you…the eels are good-plus its xmas-open your musical minds already..SHeeesh!)
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such a nice day . not working ..didnt pick up my computer till now( 3 ish) house clean- made stew that is fuckin awesome.
paid bills. feel awesome.
fending off x-mas style , but its creeping up.
The whole christmas feelings im trying so hard to ward off. i need to not get in any sort of mode at this time of year.
I used to be the biggest christmas freak, .. but now there seems no reason..my life is thin, -in the people that i feel love and deep friendship for.
family = far and few.
friends= a few great amazing ones( thank gawd)
but communication with most of them is very sporatic, as they have busy lives…and i…well, i kinda dont..
which is good. very good. just work..which i let keep me busy. but when its done..i havent a social life.
at all. its something i need to restructure. but more importantly i must look at the task at hand- how do i plan my emotional life out for the next few weeks. it feels very empty and scary to me.
ill get through but the thing 9is ..this year id really really like to do more than get through…if only cause i surely dont want to fall prey to ,this
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i just found this poem (by Dennis lee)that i recall loving ALOT, when i was little-
i loved it soo much that its actually kinda weird.
Alligator pie, alligator pie,
If I don’t get some I think I’m gonna die.
Give away the green grass, give away the sky,
But don’t give away my alligator pie.Alligator stew, alligator stew,
If I don’t get some I don’t know what I’ll do.
Give away my furry hat, give away my shoe,
But don’t give away my alligator stew.Alligator soup, alligator soup,
If I don’t get some I think I’m gonna droop.
Give away my hockey stick, give away my hoop,
But don’t give away my alligator soup.
i mean i think its a cool little hippie poem.
but when i recall how deeply i loved it..its odd. i trully remember spending hours analyzing each line of it.
guess i was stranger than i care to process, at 7.