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feeling good . free and single. i realize how constrained i felt and how much i of my irritablity comes from feeling smothered, whether or not im being smothered is subjective..but in my mind i felt totally backed in a corner. i cant stand that.but today i feel good. a bit verging on great.

no laptop- so no writing

i haven’t been writing as i don’t have a laptop. this is causing me to realize how reliant i am on this dumb technology. sitting up straight,it seems, isnt an option for rambling. i guess. well, im officially on the market for new everything: laptop, jobs and comfort. if you feel like it send all […]

the strangest period of my life

this is the strangest period of my life. not the top of the strange -like if i were rating degrees of strange :this isnt the number one, but the strange feelings and shifts around my life are trippy.i wish i could explain better. it’s sorta like if you half wake up from a super intense […]

its crazy

its crazy how i feel right now. fuckin wild. i havent felt this sort of energy in years. i feel so lost.

sinksideSun

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camera to my eye

its sunny. its soooooooo nice. i feel light again- holy shit weather realy really depresses my system..if LA keeps having vaancouver-esque winters..im going to have to go further south..But today its all perfect for me. minus powerbook failure. more on this later. much potential work on the horizon…waiting to find out on a few from […]

tipping point

is this irony or freakiness or what ? out of the kazillion things i’ve thought of since..say, last saturday…my ex boyfriend, Joel fitz , has been on my mind ..t just random thoughts thunk; probably because ive been chatting with lc of late and it got me thinking to way back when we met ( […]

reset the pram

my G5 wont start. i may kill . i ran software update slast night . restarted…grey screen… apple logo……spinning …then the fan starts wheezing…revving higher and higher…( ive NEVER HAD A PROBLENM W/ THE FAN SOUND ETC) so i did all fixes i could think of: reset the pram .. started up from startupdisk w/c […]

worst ever?

the worst feelings for me:: being lied to …and knowing it at the point the lie is being told. being angry at people that dont deserve your energy being misunderstood, and/or misinterpreted calculated meanness masked as thoughtlessness/laziness being condescended to (s’that proper?) being lied to- and knowing it as it happens….or did i say that […]