Taintme » best of me http://www.taintme.com/blog embarrassing myself online since the millenium Mon, 26 Jul 2010 23:20:37 +0000 en hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0.1 twitter may kill http://www.taintme.com/blog/best-of-me/2093/ http://www.taintme.com/blog/best-of-me/2093/#comments Tue, 26 May 2009 09:49:21 +0000 taintme http://www.taintme.com/?p=2093 On May 26, 2009, at 2:52 AM, Allison Leah wrote:

Having not had my car available the last few weeks, i have found that old familiar teen angst feling of being trapped .. not in big doses but definitely more prevalent than its been since…say highschool.. and i began to  wonder why..
..was i feeling lonely? noo
friend lacking/leftout?nope… was i gettng depressed becuase the california DMV is so atroscious?..well… not yet..So then where the hell was this leftbehind anxiety of yesterteen years coming from??

I mean.. i was home more than not , but that is perfectly NORMAL for a lady of my age..i was trully perplexed (AND anx ridden) …
..then  tonight ..as i sat on the deck. sundown.. almost summer…somewhat sulking about  missing out on a few activities i planned and looked frwd to partaking in.. .. .. I casually decide to READ  TWITTER UPDATES OF MY FRIENDS AWESOME PARTYING NIGHT.. dude there it was : the root anxiety…It was stemming from twitter, and the instant play by plays it was giving poor left-at-home me-Reading in realtime of the moments ill never be in – it was playing it to m y 14 yr old grounded self.
Imagine if there had  been twitter/facehooker/social media/ rss feeds available like this at   14?? ..when i was grounded? FUCKME that would have been the end of my parents thread-of sanity with me around.
every detail.. each song.. the details and speediness are what got me.
i found my self imaging what it was really like.. what would be played nest.. if he was talking to to her..Agin: FUCKME.

]]> http://www.taintme.com/blog/best-of-me/2093/feed/ 0 in my life http://www.taintme.com/blog/best-of-me/in-my-life/ http://www.taintme.com/blog/best-of-me/in-my-life/#comments Fri, 22 May 2009 03:58:44 +0000 taintme http://www.taintme.com/?p=2029 Sitting in the dark, in a house high above the town, birds eye viewof the h-wood sign..on a borrowed laptop- minutes before my bday( welll not minuytes.. but practically)..and I am not sad not mad not scared..just contemplating things…not the place im sitting at or the machine im writing on…not even the huge sign …but thesethings ..theseThings i find inside my head that have collected , semingly surreptitiously..moments conversations..reactions. all weird flashes. its like im n drugs BUT IM NOT.
hmmm. this is the song kindof comes to mind
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well…except for the part about when they sing to the other person : the YOU-part-who are you ..or where ?.
ok now i sound not sad but a bit pathetic. but think of this more as an existential post. really, im just mew-sing.

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