remember that song on tom waites MULE…where hes got saws and shit in the background..saying’what is he doing over there..?” etc?? well my nights are reiminiscent of this..my upstairs neighbour is constantly ‘doing shit’ and walking the floor of the apt with heavy heels…running up and down both sets of stairs…And he’s up all the…

im completely thrown . i feel like i got sucked into an anxiety vacuum(?) and i have lost all my good thoughts. i was very grumpy w/mw last night. it just pisses me off when i feel like this and i dont know how to express it to anyone.i guess i sorta expect him to…

slept through newyears..how lucky.mom is down in san clemente, have to go get her. its pissing rain here, still.had a fun evening , the night before newyears , with vDf and d.still havent talked to patrick ,really. the second i did speak to him ( he was in a mtg) he sounded so sad)hope to…

in vegas for Juicy Couture Store opening thingy, flew in their private jet …i felt soo ill.. sat alone and slept.nice room at The hotel, lara s is here, as are AK and louie.met nicki h , who seems very sweet..the store is in a mall..me, lfb, nicki, and lara s went this afternoon to…

sd w/ ns and hil -lots of people there. crowded. sat with ad and jg.sex in the city with j and e .nice mellow eve. too much food though. full. lala and coleycole are back. mjk called -hes back tomorrow .on my run today i kept having flashes of things i want to do .…