woke okay this morning..then ten minutes into being awake, i was jolted into overwhelming feelings of dispair and anger and sadness ..seemingy out of nowhere.
was at breakfast with a and c and gordy and david and had to leave the table to fake a phone call because i couldn’t hold it together.
The randomness of this depression is bizarre to me.i feel so at it’s mercy.
i would do anything right now to stop feeling this way.
i think i need to relax into this cycle ,though, or it will never leave me.