2001

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third wheel

p-o-ed. i am . i just got royally stood up by d and m. feel like this was some sort of personal afront to me. ( but, of course i know it wasnt..im just over being third wheel)

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2001 over and done with

happy new year. 2001 over and done with. 2002 sounds better. more even and balanced…just like me….?had a lovely dinner here ajp and lisa – mi ad ag lele hil too tired to write all down now. just now this i am a non smoker as of last night. ch threw water on my cigarrets […]

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my head is swirling

my head is swirling with info . not good info . but weird sorta bad/ gossipy info. i am not exactly sure what i know to be real and what is

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my g-damned book

sign my godamned gbook please. am sitting home , sat eve. dinner at the indian place. yum. ch is here. guess where? i just went to the video store and rented a few videos- funny thing- i have not done that in years…years LITERALLY link to my old g-book-wow

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still being on holiday

week of stillbeing on holiday sort of.went to vegas with lala n hh ..met the boys there .went to u2-amazing concert.the night before i left ch called me- kinda cool convo.then went to hotel with the girls and had a full on slumber party- ordered every dessert on the menu-did ‘masks’ in our pj’s and […]

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nics to fix

went to ns’s helped him set up computer. he is having a hard time …he and k broke up on sunday and he is struggling to work through it. i admire him very much. he is trying to do the right thing for himself and ‘grrow’ for lack of a better term… it’s awesome to […]

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seems so pious

seems so pious to think about filling in the details of my life over the last few days- today seems like a dream- the first call i got was from ie at 6;50am then i went to the lc and it was weird. eerie and grey…which in and of itself isn’t wierd,because the weather has […]

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good weird

haven’t written in so long-things are weird-good weird, i guess. i have noticed how much i have actually changed through this past year . i mean i know i ‘grew’ or whatever. but i am aware that , organically , i am different-my actual responses and actions and motivating factors are totally new and different.my […]

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feel scattered

hmm i feel scattered. a just called. she wanted her mail and rather than getting her to come inside, i just gave it to mf(who she was picking up)i’m over the whole deal of being judged and talked about. i let it all go.so there. ajp sent me a very sweet email and we are […]

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the light is so pretty

the light is so pretty in my house at this time of the morning. feels very hopeful or something.kak is coming into town this weekend. she has she hired a town car becaause she stll can’t drive. fun .

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my who’s who index

put up my who’s who index. i am having dinner w/ ab at lc. quite pleased with this . although i still haven’t had a shower etc and i have to be there in 45 mins. better get going

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backsliding

this a.m. , i went to the lc, met s(new friend) there. he is very sweet. went to urth. feel less depressed. yesterday the hopeless factor was so high,it scared me. i felt like i was backsliding..into that pit i was in all winter. i still have some anger residing in me, but i ‘m […]

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