cried like a small baby again this eve.
something in me snapped and i felt the loss of my relationship so deeply .(a-fucking-gain?!?!?)
like someone uncorked my solar plexus and every ounce of sadness gusshed out..
when is this shit going to be over?
i still think a smoke would feel unreal. i almost had one of lala’s ‘new’ brand…
i know it’s *cleansing* and shit,(to cry..not smoke) but the anger underneath is like a fire in my belly that
causes me to want to act out within these outbursts..like fire off really nasty emails or call and yell..
of course i didn’t,(don’t ever actually…’cept around d.)
went to les duex instead.met dj’s Ben and Jereme. sweet sweet( little) boys