it’s been a long time hours since i smoked. a long time. i feel weird. giddy almost and full of fear and ecstactic.
this alteration of my life will prove to be enorous on many levels i am sure i just have to committ to not smoking no matter what not smoking no matter what…ch i s asleep on th ecouch he seemed so sad at times this eve, it is xmas eve -we went to the na mtg…then to venice and then canters for dinner and then home. he is having a hard time with gloria and his ex …death is so unconsolable and personal. i understand that.
merry christmas dad jord grandfather grandmother danny john tasha missy…….i love you