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hmm feeling blue. yesterday felt sorta sick all day. wondering if this situation is all there is or if it is going to get better.
i do not like the way things are going at all. feel locked in myself and very frustrated.
when i think about what i want i cant seem to get a clear picture. i know it is much more than this. i deserve and owe it to myself to have true joy and happiness. especially now. i need to make a list or something. write out what it is i want and not settle for halfassed ness. why do i let these situations become so lacksidasical? so easy for everyone else. i am not putting any more time or effort into this situation. i will have true joy and happines with or without this in my life.
i am fed up with feeling i am around grumps and assholes. i do not need this shit.