hmm. revelation of the day:i don’t think i should try to be part of ch’s life unless invited.
i see my part in acting like a freak. i got overwhelmed with not smoking and not feeling ‘protected’ or whatever..
anyway i put alot of shit on him last night that he didnt deserve-at all. poor baby.
anyway big deal NOT. i just need to not focus on this t all. i am feeling pretty good considering.
i have