in my life

Sitting in the dark, in a house high above the town, birds eye viewof the h-wood sign..on a borrowed laptop- minutes before my bday( welll not minuytes.. but practically)..and I am not sad not mad not scared..just contemplating things…not the place im sitting at or the machine im writing on…not even the huge sign …but thesethings ..theseThings i find inside my head that have collected , semingly surreptitiously..moments conversations..reactions. all weird flashes. its like im n drugs BUT IM NOT.
hmmm. this is the song kindof comes to mind
well…except for the part about when they sing to the other person : the YOU-part-who are you ..or where ?.
ok now i sound not sad but a bit pathetic. but think of this more as an existential post. really, im just mew-sing.