sometimes i am so perplexed by my life

sometimes i am so perplexed by my life and where i fit in it. i know who is important to me and i know where my intentions lie…(good, mostly) i just get a feeling sometimes that i am living someone elses life and i got here by mistake and ‘they'(the big collective ‘they’..)are going to find out i am really just a lamo nerdy Canadian and i am going to be sent home…hmm.
i am feeling good right now- sorta creative and inspired. i may not go to Hawaii this week. but that is still pending-whatever is meant to be will happen the right thing may be that i don’t go cause something else, something more awesome is supposed to happen here..who knows? definitely not i.
had an amazing visit with ss this eve.