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woops: here’s the linkn to my crushes.embarrasment pagegoing to spazmatics…
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wait what are they doing over there?
remember that song on tom waites MULE…where hes got saws and shit in the background..saying’what is he doing over there..?” etc?? well my nights are reiminiscent of this..my upstairs neighbour is constantly ‘doing shit’ and walking the floor of the apt with heavy heels…running up and down both sets of stairs…And he’s up all the…
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im-thrown
im completely thrown . i feel like i got sucked into an anxiety vacuum(?) and i have lost all my good thoughts. i was very grumpy w/mw last night. it just pisses me off when i feel like this and i dont know how to express it to anyone.i guess i sorta expect him to…
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slept-through-nye
slept through newyears..how lucky.mom is down in san clemente, have to go get her. its pissing rain here, still.had a fun evening , the night before newyears , with vDf and d.still havent talked to patrick ,really. the second i did speak to him ( he was in a mtg) he sounded so sad)hope to…
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Juicy Couture Store
in vegas for Juicy Couture Store opening thingy, flew in their private jet …i felt soo ill.. sat alone and slept.nice room at The hotel, lara s is here, as are AK and louie.met nicki h , who seems very sweet..the store is in a mall..me, lfb, nicki, and lara s went this afternoon to…
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third wheel
p-o-ed. i am . i just got royally stood up by d and m. feel like this was some sort of personal afront to me. ( but, of course i know it wasnt..im just over being third wheel)
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truelove?
re-read the truelove poem tonight. where is my hand ?????? fer fucks sake. bed without dinner
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lame about writing
still lame about writing. b is moving into a house wit h ns. i am having a good productive day. up met cole on larchmont . home. picked up at hs. then met paula at 101 and e came. then home then i am running put to ch’s house. should be a huge run. i…
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Still weak
monday still weak..went to dinner and les duex. tuesday went to whatever…met ch and left.and .went to his house and drank tea and stuff.i bought him a honey bear and some half half and he was so grateful..it was very sweet.ramn to the mtg this am. had a lovely breakfast with ie and ad and…
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sex in the city
sd w/ ns and hil -lots of people there. crowded. sat with ad and jg.sex in the city with j and e .nice mellow eve. too much food though. full. lala and coleycole are back. mjk called -hes back tomorrow .on my run today i kept having flashes of things i want to do .…
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good weird
haven’t written in so long-things are weird-good weird, i guess. i have noticed how much i have actually changed through this past year . i mean i know i ‘grew’ or whatever. but i am aware that , organically , i am different-my actual responses and actions and motivating factors are totally new and different.my…
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meeting with ap
met ap.sat thru the whole damn meeting.good for us. then to urth w/lou. who is devastated by j. which i find mind boggling, as he is such a drip. ahh well. i am sure the whole world thinks my choices in men are a bit dodgy..which i guess they are. i worked out for awhile…