fuckits

evrything seems weird and sad. spent the day w/jam and z and they are both devasted.
so i took on some of this..also cole is very over me.
aparently i have been a really bad friend and she feels hurt and angry at me.
nothing i can do.oh well..i guess no party this eve,i cant even be bothered to call anyone about it.
i feel like its last year all over again.fuck it. fuck it.