see my life

i see my life quite clearly right now. i amno longer upset about cole. i am fullof love and forgivness both for me and everyone else.
i know i am not a bad friend ’cause i have never showed up or been as present as i have been for someone as i have in the last year. i know my truth and i am ok
i pray that she is ok and that there is resolution. and love and mmore fun times ahead for us-together.
i am not freaking out like i used to..maybe because i know she is more like a sister and i REMEBER all the sweet things i felt and she said and i still believe them..i am not ready to discard any of it.
except for mjk being a party of our lives .it will all woprk out becaus ei have let it go and and can envision the joy ahead and now.