feel okay..
woke early, went downtown w/La.then met lou for coffee,then worked out for quite awhile. now @.home,d and a are here.cleaning lady was here.everything is lovely.
(clean&tidy lovely,that is..)
still in gripping fear over all my situations.must meditate or something.fuckin hell.
this sux sooo much. i am living like a robot. you aren’t supposed to be this bummed out at 29;i’m sure of this fact.L sucks ass . i think i am really mad now. why is it he hasn;t replyed to me??
Basically, i’m floating in space and i have no purpose (that i know of yet)and iam sinkig deeper into debt and despair each day.
my only saving graces are my apartment and my car and my friends. that is alot. but i am still scared shitless , i don’t know where to go for help. i am going to be ok. i think.