it keeps feeling like the world is pulling away from me.
my world. what i believed was true for me. i am so sure i am doing the right thing by being here and taking care ,yet as i start to feel renewed and cohesive with the world, i get sent an email
or receive a phone call -that puts the dread and fear of being “ganged up on” back in my system.
i know that i have rights . the right to have my voice heard against women when they gang up.
it is so obivious that a big huge part of my karma here on earth -is to stand up
-gracefully-
to groups of women,whom i tend to fear,
and in turn tend to turn on me.
it feels really crappy and i don’t want to do anything,
except
stay here
play records
and write
and run with my dog.
but i have a path. a personal legend, as it were. to follow and fufill in this life and these are just the omens.
some good .some bad.
i have been willing to go this fucking far
i am not letting these minor players set me back any further.
they all served amazing purposes
and now their roles are being cut out of my story…
and ..i walk forward
&go into the light -away from what makes me sad
or tired-
i start to move towards what energizes
heals & inspires my soul
and my heart+
and + i am one with the soul of the world+
this much is true;
so far so good
i say