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i felt momentarily touched …as if i were special,
when i received***
the sweet message below from an admirer:
Hey
am Alice,i came across your profile now when i was brousing the
internet, and you really freakm me, My dear, i decided to contact you.
i really want to have a good friendship with you. I will be very happy,
If you can write to my e-mail address so we can get to know each other
better,and i well give you my pictures and allso tell you more about me
ok, my email is [email protected] maybe we can start from
here,Beside i have something specia i want to discusse with you,
that i can write and send it to you and peace,
My email is [email protected],
Alice
i felt un special when i googled that email address
*** i before e except after c
Allow me to “toot” my own horn:not bad photographry for one who who knows nuthing of it and with200 bestbuy camera eh?
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this song for my recent posts’
It’s kinda awesome ( & appropriate?)
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To trully appreciate this post’s full dramtic effect-ive added enhancing mood music-just press play ) .thank-u.read-on..
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“A lie, by omission or directly fabricating .. leads people to decide other than they would, had they known the truth,It harms their human dignity and autonomy.It is believed that to value ourselves and others as ends instead of means, we have perfect duties (i.e., no exceptions) to avoid damaging, interfering with, or misusing the ability to make free decisions;”
So in my life.. I ve been, (on more occasions than anyone would like to admit) a liar, a cheat a thief and an asshole-To Lots of people….Probably to some reading this.. and this is written for you, dear person whom i may have emotionally violated in this way .. it’s payback time:i got got. Big time.The last four months i have been living under a delusion created not by me.. ( for once) but by a sweet, sexy ( to me, prior to knowing the truth) superb master equivicator*..A Fiendish.. Master of manipulation and Creator of False-Mess.( love that term:”False-Mess”)And , after figuring it all out..i had the atypical ‘woe is i ‘ reaction:..i was a bit precious ( so to be expected..i AM a girl..had THE pms..coupled w/ some strong feelings for this liar))You know :weepy sad/ ..aghast/angry .. etc etc..But then , just as quickly as i was struck with the duality of the situation… a Phenomenon of unknown proportions has hit me..as i think about theLiar and his LyingLies.. I start laughing .. real-sincere-will-ferrel-dvd-watching-laughter. ..as i recall details and situations from the past few months- and i realize they were sooo not what i thought they were.. i don’t get sad/angry or heartachey..Like i thought and feared i would..Instead i start with the laughing( on the inside, mostly) ..I mean ..cmon.. what this poor liar must have been going through. the stress and pace of the lifestyle to maintain the lies.. must have been ( probably still is..) Enormous.This part is so heady.. the part about our ‘connection’ being completely one sided **(c below),so it seems, that it has caused me to supercede most typical sadness to fascination and admiration for the Liars abilities and skill at maintaining for such a period, at such depth.I am in awe of the masterful way it was spun to me.. it was impeccable.. i mean..Who was this person.. whom i had somehow chosen to open up to on that ‘emo’ level..?( -note to self: remember that romance is a fictional thing)It was the ultimate turn of the universe’s trump card.For all you i did wrong.. i am sorry and i get it…..to be continued..** this point is a bit sad still, for me.. but i think i should be able to smoke through it ..
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This is franco and Patrick- at a shoe store on 4th ave in Vancouver- they are both ignoring me.
today i spent the better part of the day “off”, per se.
in actual..the morning was not off.. i was dealing with the house and financial shit.. but around 2pm, a new friend came over and we kinda played hooky.
super fun.
went to venice for dinner walked the boardwalk after , got lattes and drove home and played on computers.
phone not answered, emails not read.. and ok with it. ( wow)
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listen to post’s theme song**
note to boys : making the first move- is infinetly way sexier than being a ‘gentleman’
..and being kinda urgent and pushy about it..even sexier.*
.PLEASE KNOW THIS ..a slight shove…pushing me against the wall? done…… it’s on.*
i m there.
Its simply just one , quick..overwhelming fell swoop of a move.. that states:
“im the dude, your the chick, and now i will have you”
guy pulls this..and pretty much, for me..its guaranteed.
Tenative, gentle passiveness in guys? not sexy… shy coy = gross.
maybe some like that .. and i apologize to those who do..but i dont.
( *only if its a mutual attraction..of course..otherwise this one is a bit sticky)
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The other night, i randomly….no..not randomly-i forgot: random doesn’t exist …..so anyway..i guess i was ‘drawn’ to turn the tv on , at an odd hour – and guess what (who)? was on Oprah ‘confronting’ the most recent blahged about topic here(and everywhere) james frey. The thing that struck me, is that oprah , seems to be behaving like she was ‘confronting’ mr.frey out her own humiliation…which comes off kinda looking weak. i mean the guys fucked, everyone sees it. but this appeared, to me, like an unnecessary human attack.i dunno..maybe it was just for ratings…but come on..the hard hitting questions from Oprah like ;“Were there one or two root canals , james…just answer the question….one or two?” thats lamo-rama, Oprah.I fully concede to his lameness in what he lied about about how he fronted and especially acting such a pompous ass- i even wrote a HUGE rant at him , but now…i kinda feel bad for the what seems overkill on the punishment of a person already taken down.My take at this point is that he is just a smart-ass who hadnt allowed for alot of spiritual growth ( up to know- cause you know he’s going through some heavy forced spiritual growing at this point-)-with an oversized sense of importance i mean, if you read (listened) to “hisbook”-and especially if you’ve ever been in recovery, or have gone through you’re own darknight and come through…you’d have a sense of his impossible grandiose attitude and would have had a sense (or i did anyway) of how he was setting himself up for some sort of fall- via the air of conquering something that (seemingly) needs a spiritual awakening for any conquering at all to happen, led me to feel likehis path of ‘awakening’ was not complete- Now I think Oprah needs to check in with why shes so vehemently chastising another human -the end dialogue . was somewhat redeeming , for both of them..iguess.. kinda like Oprah won , though.Personally i just dont think the public attack in the way they did it was very graceful or ‘oprah-ish’NOt that ANY of this is important to my life, other than something to one (or two) off blah-g about…addiction, coincidence, flake, Frey, fuckinEh
Or "how James frey Stole My Future husband" You see..when that shit book originally came out- and everyone was raving about (and buying) James Freys :
“ .. shattering, beautiful memoir, A Million Little Pieces,"Basically , i saw it as being personally dream- jacked Read More
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yes indeed.lets kick some bass behind closed doooors.
i remember being in grade nine, during springbreak..i was in whistler, at my parents-with a few girls staying w/ us for the vacation..there was also a group of boys, staying down the street with the dewolfes…
im fairly bored these days…and as i am truely boycrazy and there doesnt seems to be any boys to be crazy about around me…i adapted the ‘boyfriend application” from somewhere – so as to be more me/la/friendly…
if u feel excited by the thought of me and carrot cake and gingerale…. …GO HERE and send to me. asap.
be anonymous if you want. i dont care .