i am out of it. things are crazy in my body. i’ve slept sooo much over the last few days and feel weird. but im ok i guess. just trying to give up these stoopid things called cigarettes. feel pretty alone in the whole thing though. yuck. . i dont care though,

interesting to see peoples true colors watching them make that choice …know they will always make that choice.

almost done smoking fuck shit fuck hope i dont get fat. i wont. i will do yoga till i am a pretzel and run like the fucking wind.

this is who i am dating…?!?click to see

slept alot this weekend. got an email about doing these questions .kinda cool. went to minnie shouse for jo’s bday party. fun. alexandra cooked the best chili i have ever tasted. i want to move into that house. it is so cozy and warm . lala came up later. had a really good chat with…

great day. jlh and i had an awesome talk about fears and levels of reality. how it is all not real. slept in abit- worked on ritas site. ch came over . fun. went to ameeting in the valley. funny.you go over mullhulland and it could be antwhere in the midwest or canada. fucking weird..…

“The moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decisions, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents and meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have…

when i wake up tomorrow, i will be more loving and kind than i was today

k no more rating shit i am not into judgement…i just got carried away for a sec

sally and ns came over this afternoon, afer lala was here. had a great visit. then went to rodeo-ajp(NEWLY ENGAGED) picked me up and drove me there- he didnt go to the meeting. just came over and had a visit via the drive to the meeting…very sweet of him. he seems very focused and happy-…

am i hot or not?rate me

meeting ie and ajp and jlh @ rodeo.ch is saving seats for us. 2 seats anyway. mjk isnt coming to give ie his cake. -havent heard from him. i miss him though. i wish i could mix him up with ie and ch and ajp and ykw and i would have the perfect mate.ch is…