ohhh..the horror of my solar plexus and it’s sucking leaky tragic energy.
it feel so overwhelming of late.
basically it is screaming so loud for a mutha frickin cigarette.
the banter back and forth of the last two days has spurred this energy on…..and banter is all it is.
i am not getting anything i think i want from him. muther fucker.
every message devastes me , in it’s vaguenes and nonchalant-ness.
because what i want is so complex? (for him)i think it is soooo simple.
just to be loved the way i need . to fill the gapping hole in my chest.

any how, on alighter note..saw the best billed show (of living artists) ever..for me.
the chili peppers and neil oh mah gawd.so fun.went with a.b.

then out on the town after.saw dk out prowling.