feel so tired and unmotivated
feel so tired and unmotivated. found out that cute guy from the morning mtg. is a bit of a player. roamer , he is. and seems to like m’s friend. ahh well. i’m not that worried about it. i just want to not be bored and boring all the time. sent some email today to […]
changing and swirling
it’s all changing and swirling in my head. my thoughts are on overdrive. i read some great things today, but i am too poor at this to link or quote..so take my word for it-my best friend in the world from 12 till 23 emailed me tday. no big deal right? wrong. she hasn’t spoken […]
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ok, after having read samantha’s thought s on what a blog could/should/tries to do, ifeel like i need to follow her lead and have some sort of purpose or structure to what i aim to give/get from this here rambling series. let’s see..a mission statement will be my goal for myself today. that’s it. by […]
urth for breakfast
went to urth this am w/ m. cute boy there. sooo cute. last week,at dinner, dp said that i was worse than any guy she knew in respect to checking people out.. hmm, i really never think of myself that way. but i guess i am . i mean i am single. but i ‘m […]
wrote the longest post
today i wrote the longest post;only to lose it as i posted it.don’t feel motivated to write at all. i’ve been home al night. didn’t go to the bday party. dk bagged out ,so did dp. i am so tired but i ‘m having the hardest time sleeping. as isolated as i am these days, […]
mission for today
mission for today: i am going to spend the day redesigning my own site, no work.WHY oh why did i take a job redoing a freaking online furniture store. how much is that going to SUCK-ahh free furniture will be good. although it won’t pay the rent
last night
last night, although exhausted beyond beyond, i had the nicest dinner w/ ss. she and s broke up and it seems like a really good thing. it was just one of those relationships that i thought(judgmental me) was ‘off’. they were both awesome. but he is so much older and she didn’t see how great […]
life is getting so weird
my life is getting so weird. i went to the lc this am, had breakfast w/michelle and her ‘gang’ of friends. as i sat in the cabin , i thught abut being where i am . this place in my head . it’s definetly a differentt state of mind than any i have known. meaning […]
hil is back. yeah!
hil is back. yeah! can’t figure out what is wrong with me..perhaps lack of food coupled with isolation is dragging my system down. whatever. i’m feeling a bit inspired to make something of this site, now. i wonder what it is i am here to do, on this earth, i mean. feel as though if […]
good thing i can’t entertain myself
good thing i can’t entertain myself and i’m practically thirty. it’s sunday. international day of depression. why? it ‘s the intrinsic sense of impending drudgery from 13school years of monday mornings. what else.? i wonder if ishould go to the ‘party’ at les duex tom. eve. i went last week, but i was feeling incredibly […]
how annoying
how annoying. i can’t find a single thing to do. i’ve surfed and surfed and all i’ve ended up with is more wants.. ie:digital camera that works. and books and cd’s.good thing it is my birthday in 39 days.
front of the macheen
i am insane alittle right now. i know this because i am immobilized in front of the macheen and can’t decide what to eat/do/write next. hmmmmm.not such an interesting connundrum, i know. but a connundrum nonetheless. i get so much satisfaction knowing i can do anything i like.yeah