raining like a noones bidness. nice.reminds me of afternoons when i was little and mom would let us stay inside and watch t.v.(rare..not the rain, but t.v. watching..)
cozy feeling.good day, thus far.returned almost all calls and emails.
unbelivable, really. for me.
the running theme:faith. in all areas of my life. all.
every single one. money . gc. boys. friends . it’s hard . scary actually.
i am in messy spots with D. haven’t heard from him since my ‘explosion’ yesterday.
oh well.
faith. getting some . want to smoke a bit but won’t, right now.
only thing stopping me is vanity and ego , i think.
a is having a tough time. i guess i should give her that grace right now.
very bitchy, but catches herself . i am sensi girl ,too. i feel lonely-ish.
not as scary as before, perhaps because i feel i have options. but still lonely.
need to let go ,absolutley.