yesterday the pain in my solarplexus was unreal..unbearable..rendered me weepy,unfunctioning.well not completely, got out of bed, got a job doing a web site, payed some bills.seem to have super strong faith right now,a and i are getting back on track.sweet relief. i missed her , i wasn’t mad . i was hurt like a mutha fuckah.it’s all about kindness.it transcends everything.miss z like crazy, now.went to swgs with a and then AGAIN later w/ mthen to karaoke(SP?)saw b there,had awesome chat. turns out we met here(my house) with e and j last year…get this:on our way to l’s show.kinda funky…coincidental..odd..and then….today, at erewhon. after the gym, i ran into et.how synchronatic.always with this one.(L)do like her. felt a little awkward though. good chat except when i brought up L.we talked forever in the homeopathec aisle.supposed to be making amends to L as i write this..but..hmm funny thing, he hasn’t called.he will.dk was just here on his way over to bw’s.gawd he is sexy(bw ..)met cute boy last night. hope at least.