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So..last night , sitting on the deck , .at my friends amazing home in the canyon, looking at the hollywood sign.-
whilst listening to neil sing “journey through time”.
and it rained like i was back in vancouver-
i found myself reflecting on Thanksgiving- ..and you know what…when you really think about it ,
it’s a very special 24 hours .. a rare tiny pocket of time – just prior to impending xmas-anxiety-pomp-n-circumstance -that is meant only to be spent eating and “giving thanks”..with your most loved people -
and in that moment ..listening to rain and neil…
i realized exactly what i am trully ,
at my self-centered core, most grateful for:
the added things in my life that i dont NEED to live,
but make living a fuck of alot funner:
they are: you( my friends/family) and music. those are the two bests.
most important and cherised by me. they ( you & music) bring upon most of my epic moments.
So , on the eve of Thanksgiving.(tonight: wednesday november 26th 2008 ), in honor of you and music,
im going to the go sit at the coolest little unpretensious bar in hollywood,
drink a redbull or two..and let really fun friends entertain me with the greatest luxury i have:
kickass music..
you + the music + me.. bestever.
please come and ill share my gratitude for your prescence in my life and buy you a cocktail and we can toast our awesome crazy music filled lives.
luv
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ROCK N ROLL Wednesdays @ The Bar (5851 Sunset Blvd Los Angeles, CA 90028).
Best place to party your face off the night before turkey day
Event InfoHost: BUDDYHEAD
Party – Night of Mayhem
Los Angeles, CA
Time and PlaceStart Time:
Wednesday, November 26, 2008 at 10:00pm
End Time:
Thursday, November 27, 2008 at 2:00am
Location:
The Bar
Street:
5851 Sunset Blvd
City/Town:
Hollywood, CA
Every Wednesday you can find Jeordie “Twiggy” White (Marilyn Manson, NIN, A Perfect Circle) and Travis Keller(and whoever else shows up that week) playing rock n’ roll @ The Bar (5851 Sunset Blvd Los Angeles, CA 90028).
This week is Thanksgiving week. So the night before you eat turkey and celebrate how a bunch of white men killed native indians… come to The Bar and drink your self silly. We’re gonna have a good time. We’re gonna have a party!
Come down, have a few drinks, meet some freaks, listen to some tunes and have a little bit of mid week fun
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So it only took me like twenty jesus-F-ing years to discover what could be some of my MOST favorited music... embarrassing part: all of it has been RIGHT infornt of me. Let me clarify..by right infront of me , i mean, yes-this is all older music ..and it's been out there, in the world for years.. BUT i mean it literally:
Read Morei feel like i am becoming invisible.
i have checked my phone ringer settings.
i have just done an extensive email settings overhaul ( neede to do because of entourage/mail switch-aroo)
eery. i know itll all start ringing and pinging again soon eenough, and ill get all hatefull .
BUT, it feels weird and i feel lonely. ohhh poor me.
and i saw A MOVIE IN A THEATRE today…yes, thats right allison leah creelman went and not only saw a movie, but got there early bought tickets and persuaded a few of her remaining friends( although after film this status may have changed) into going.
went to graumanns chinese to see WHITE Noise.
best part: it was shot in vancouver, with great scenes of vancouver.
underworld premier went w/ dlo to wes and heathersthen met ie and ls and the brkstr there. i sat outside the whole movie practically- it was cool looking just terrible seats in the front row to the left- killed my neck.i am so glad ls came – we got to hang out and smoke while they watched. she is funny.and loves ie and makes him happy. what more could one ask for?i wonder when i will have that. i am so barricaded – i am readfy for some dude to just break thru the barricades(to quote bry adams)and hiton me or something.weirdly awful-good-necasserry week. alcoholism suicide record release disconnected-ness.i feel conflicted and if step in the wrong spot i wil be blown up .i cant believe the insensitivity-or actually way beyond insensitivity-self obsessed false postuering behaviour of some.it saddens me to no end. i want things to be good and happy- moments like how i felt in qc. perfect able to be present feel joy in the moment and full odf love for evryone around me and gratitude for being where i was.i dont think this is unattainable- i just think so many others think it is that i forget that i can be happy at any chosen moment. i am disatisfied with my life in many areas after coming back from canada- i want to be inspired to do authentic stuff that i love-from my cells-like those around me- but the problem is i think my path is about love and service – cause the only thing i thrive in -is listening and understanding and showing different ways to people. fuck- i dont know what i am talking about- i do know that i miss people again. i stopped missing people a long time ago- perhaps out of self protection and part outof having unmissable people around. but now i do; i miss my dad. alot. i thought about him so much in canada it hurt my stomach . but i think missing people is indicitive of a void in my life- a lack of intimacy maybe- no i am intimate with a few people- i am definetly unguarded around 2 or 3 people- but never always and completely.i am scared of being really close because then…?
full moon made me edgy and weird. swam naked with the girls and did yoga under the full moon. cool outside at the house. weird energy.
i want to not go to bed on a sour note. i want to sleep well and wake up with gratitude and love in my heart . i feel very vulnerable, as i have so much over the last 6 months-not weak, just open and sensitive. i want to use these lessons in my life , of late to spread good stuff-not be grumpy and judgemental. it just doesn’t feel good.
i pray that all those i felt resentful at get more loveand peace in their lives NOW. i pray that it all works out .
everything.
i pray that my close friends know i love them and how important they are to me.
i pray that those i don’t see/speak ;yet are important in my heart; KNOW that they are dear to me(even if in odd ways)
i pray that max is happy .
met ap.sat thru the whole damn meeting.good for us.
then to urth w/lou.
who is devastated by j. which i find mind boggling, as he is such a drip.
ahh well. i am sure the whole world thinks my choices in men are a bit dodgy..which i guess they are.
i worked out for awhile , people creep me out at that gym.
brokeass gym that it is.
HUGE earthquake in vancouver today, talked to mom;who said it was loud(?)
Hailey freaked out.
ate with jane and d.she pissed me off but i got over it.she is so dismissive and bitchy.