i want to not

i want to not go to bed on a sour note. i want to sleep well and wake up with gratitude and love in my heart . i feel very vulnerable, as i have so much over the last 6 months-not weak, just open and sensitive. i want to use these lessons in my life , of late to spread good stuff-not be grumpy and judgemental. it just doesn’t feel good.
i pray that all those i felt resentful at get more loveand peace in their lives NOW. i pray that it all works out .
i pray that my close friends know i love them and how important they are to me.
i pray that those i don’t see/speak ;yet are important in my heart; KNOW that they are dear to me(even if in odd ways)
i pray that max is happy .