vegas puts my body in a weird state; i am very anxiety riddled..yet about nuthing at all..(except perhaps , mom)has ‘happened’yet,i constantly feel as though i am on the verge of some …thing….?an idea ? a boy? ..great party? /creative burst? …… something…but the reality seems to be that i just want to get to…

its christmas day. im in vegas.again. kinda fun.sad.eerie/meloncholly creepy but good.mom kelly are across the hall..we are staying at TheHotelflew out last night , after minor emotional family drama,cs (rNDOMLY)CAME WITH US.THAT WAS FUN.he flew back this afternoon to tend to his dog.did a little stocking ceremony at lunchtime.last night we went gambling – both…