what is really going on for me?

what is really going on for me? i am scared out of my mind. i am scared of not getting legal working freedom in the us. i am scared of not ever having enough money that i earn to pay back my mom and pay my own bills all the time easily . i am scared that i will never be in love . fuck.
i am soo scared and i feel hungover from lastyear…all the stress of what wa happening last year at this time is acting like muscle memory-cept in the form of anxiety…free floating anxiety. yuck