Posts Tagged ‘2002’
nice am. woke went to ie’s hung with erwin and cat(oops forgot his name)
then up to mjk’s to hang with those cats and fish.
then to lc ..left as i have heard the speaker before.went to meet rf and her italian diver boy/man.
at urth. then home . got the garage cleaned out finally (3 years later!!) abe and lea are moving..weird.
mw just got home.now bathing then to ie’s then sundowners.supposed to see fern at 330 or 4. hmm. i am feeling anxiety over tomorrow. mom arrives at 12 45 and i have to be at the house for all the work people at that time..
campfreddie this eve.umm. well . it was fun. i danced alot. ahmet was great.he sang ‘feel like making luv.”so awesome.
bereal was there. sang rocksupahstar.
very cool. also nika costa.more tomorrow..im too tired
odd quiet weekend. woke sat and went met z at virgin with jam. then coffee and took jam to therapy. then met rf and her italian hottie , then to work till 1 30. then to see solaris with my husband. good . then swingers with df and mw. then movies at home. worked on choptop and eddie sites also bny site. supposed to drive dia to the airport but i SLEPT THROUGH THE ALARM!!!i cant believe it..df took her(fwwff)nice morning …went to larchmont with mw -we sat and talked for 2 hours..now we are home. goin to meet cousin and z at the 11;45 mtg.
open letter to myself: how blessed r u? being able to hang out with the awesome loving fun people i do..and have a great home for me and my husband..and have a great car and be able to have people over for dinner (like this eve)and go to a party and leave and go to athe 100 and see more great people..then come home and play on my computer and talk about the eve with mw.
i am blessed.
ok ’nuff to me.
odd week with z in the hospital and work and people etc. not bad-just alittle off the center -gave me some perspective, i guess.
sunday i [picked up mjk and ie at the airport..then mjk and i hung out at the house.
went to dinner with a fun group on sunday bh and dravens nephews camwe. dl was there..(swoon)
ns hil ls ie Very nice to see Ls as ie has seemingly sequestered her to his place for months ..it seems.
then monday…fairly chaos free…got mjk organized . he had lunch with dl -i did laundry. then ie and ls came up top the house and we loaded all the precious wine into my car. then i proceeded (with ls) to follow the boys in the porsche in the heat of the day thru brutal traffic to inglewood to the forum. ugh
mellow before the show dhl and al and mh came down.had an amazingly revealing and honest convo with al and mh
we had fun. hil and ns2 bought tix and met us there.
the actual show was perhaps one of the most amazing experiences in my life thus far. i felt small and overwhelmed and ecstatic and energized and loving and like a little kid and a parent all at the same time.
it’s funny how i dont relate the person on stage to the mjk i know.the fans went WILD.
so proud.
got a post card from ch. must of sent it the day he left.
worked with cw all day ..dk came over and saved the day (or the book)
then met coleycole and mw and spent afternoon in the pool and eve at meeting…with hil and ns too. then dinner at the indian place ..
funny. then saw coleys newly decorated apt. then ns and i met hil and we went to ledome…nico was having a thing..then we went by the standard..it was absolutley awful…unbearable for me.
full moon made me edgy and weird. swam naked with the girls and did yoga under the full moon. cool outside at the house. weird energy.
sd w/ ns and hil -lots of people there. crowded. sat with ad and jg.
sex in the city with j and e .
nice mellow eve. too much food though. full. lala and coleycole are back. mjk called -hes back tomorrow .
on my run today i kept having flashes of things i want to do . like move to the beach and paint and surf and run . move to mexico or bali or wherever and have babies and eat fruit and make art and wear sarongs. for half the year…
and then come back for half the year. god that would be great. maybe no babies though. just babysit and play with other peoples babies for a while..
write stories. live somewhere else. have someone to shareit all with. i sound cheesy a bit. but the thing is i realize that i only want what is intuitivley right for me t
what is really going on for me? i am scared out of my mind. i am scared of not getting legal working freedom in the us. i am scared of not ever having enough money that i earn to pay back my mom and pay my own bills all the time easily . i am scared that i will never be in love . fuck.
i am soo scared and i feel hungover from lastyear…all the stress of what wa happening last year at this time is acting like muscle memory-cept in the form of anxiety…free floating anxiety. yuck
happy new year. 2001 over and done with. 2002 sounds better. more even and balanced…just like me….?
had a lovely dinner here ajp and lisa – mi ad ag lele hil too tired to write all down now. just now this i am a non smoker as of last night. ch threw water on my cigarrets when he got here( at 2am) he did this after i “threw” them in the trash..
went to les duex at about 10 30 . PACKED but fun. saw a lot of people. vedy drunk people. lak got wasted…hilarious actually.wl was there as was db.
funny weird energy with a lot of people. awkward.