these are the beginning thoughts on what i am about. what i am doing..if anyone gets the wearwithall to read any of this ..sorry. or whatever. i don’t know. i feel like i need to write and as i am in front of my machine at almost all times-of late..it seems the right medium.so here .
i am 29. i’ll be thirty in 7 weeks.my life has changed dramatically in the last three months.it’s all weird and convuluted, but i am okay with it all.i guess.
i live alone.
well, if you don’t count my verycloseneigbours.
my dad died almost two years ago. i don’t know how this fits in.
it does, somehow.also, i am ‘sober’-3 years in june.
these are just facts. not who i am.
sort of part of who i am becoming, i guess.
i seem to have very few friends of late. a big shift happened . had a big group
now i don’t. i have a few very close awesome people in my life. i am very close with my brother. this is new-ish , though.my mom too.
they live in canada. i live in california.
i am very ‘spiritually oriented’-searching still..but i believe in forces much greater than just me.
and you.
and ‘him’
a word about ‘hims’: don’t have much luck in the romantic area of my life-the last three boys(keyword here)i dated had live-in girlfriends(that weren’t me)
hmm.i’m told that i’m pretty. i can sometimes see it. i know i haven’t got a problem in ‘attracting’ people-it’s the quality that needs improvement.
this is why i am home on a saturday night writing this, not at a soiree.
i am trying to figure out what/who i want i n my life.