dinner a the ivy.
went down to the beach last night- after an awesome dinner a tthe ivy. stayed out there..then came up and went to the cabin. going to have brunch with ie and ls and hil hopeflly. then holiday sales shopping. then to the beach as cs lent m ehis bitchin place for the weeknd.how kind and […]
oh mah gawd
jk sent me this this am..OH MAH GAWDfree francis bean.
truelove?
re-read the truelove poem tonight. where is my hand ?????? fer fucks sake. bed without dinner
odd saturday
such an odd saturday. after ss left i have been alone and in a weird lonely state. ok though. i didnt reach out to anyone..so i must somehow need this alone lonely time. wrote some amends letters. feel sad about ie and ls. i hate it when people yell at me like that. i miss […]
i dont like this
odd weird sad feeling has struck ..or crept up on me this saturday afternoon.awesome visit with mj at fred segal..lunch shopping (bought myself grossly overpriced sunglasses.)he bought me some awesome sexy perfume.ss came over later we shot the shit etc.but now i am here and it is sunny and inbetween day and night..nuthing to do […]
i am single
i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch. oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr […]
forensic files and sex
i am single . i am sorta still sad. not sad in an upset i want him back kind of way…more just sad that i dot get to watch forensic files and have sex and silly stuff. i know i will again..its just that i got used to ch.oh well.bw’s bday last night. cr dd […]
dentist hell today
dentist hell today. i have been so bad about writing in here.mjk is back…makes me happy.i actually missed him quite a bit.i am trying to think about what has happened of late..ryan is on the cover of t&c mag…whatever that means. weird.it was such a short time ago that she was sleeping on the floor […]
fucking brutal weekend
fucking brutal weekend.friday rodeo..then 101. sat. malibu neighbourhood shit. then cs made me aweome dinner at his awesome apartment and then we watched a movie and i slept there. woke up feeling sick as a dog. then went to 11 45 mtg met jameela there and had brkfst with lots of people -lel and his […]
lame about writing
still lame about writing. b is moving into a house wit h ns. i am having a good productive day. up met cole on larchmont . home. picked up at hs. then met paula at 101 and e came. then home then i am running put to ch’s house. should be a huge run. i […]
trying it all again
i m trying it all again. everything. i am starting to write ( i promise myself) more consistantly and draw and paint. make stuff.i feel very off right now..but sort of in a good kooky kind of way. no sleep for 3 days/nights.almost like being on acid. a little less nerve wracking, though.i have to […]
serious insomnia
i have serious insomnia- havent slept more than 5 minutes…havent had this in forever. weekend wasgood.