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what is really going on for me?
what is really going on for me? i am scared out of my mind. i am scared of not getting legal working freedom in the us. i am scared of not ever having enough money that i earn to pay back my mom and pay my own bills all the time easily . i am…
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anxious and clear all at the same time
wow. i feel weird and anxious and clear all at the same time. frightened by the prospect of having do something new. put up a donation thingy so you all can help me pay for life ok OLD =out:smoking. people pleasing at my own expense… shit talk IN=in:yoga meditation more love sex and water
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2001 over and done with
happy new year. 2001 over and done with. 2002 sounds better. more even and balanced…just like me….?had a lovely dinner here ajp and lisa – mi ad ag lele hil too tired to write all down now. just now this i am a non smoker as of last night. ch threw water on my cigarrets…
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great visit
great talk with lak. feels like forever since we have chatted like that.
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the party
the party is going to be non smoking.huh. that’ll show em.they’ll have to smoke outside in the cold.
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so nice to see ie
so nice to see ie!!!he just drove me home from the mtg. ad was there had a good smoking convo. ugh. she is good for me though. cause i think we smoked for the same reasons. hmm. i am a bit nervous about today and not having a car to do all this shit.i’ll figure…
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everyone is home
everyone is home or enroute. feel very good. had a nice visit with hil. talked to ns and now organizing for tomorrow. cant hardly figure out what to do first!clean redecorate cook paint …..should be fun. i feel so clear as to what is really going on now. i am just having feelings and they…
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awesome cords
nice day. woke up – borrowed ch’s car got some groceries…well coffee stuff. then ab came and got me and we went to 3 and g , didn’t stay. talked to redhaired alison. and colby. then we went to the 11 45 meeting. laren was there so was owen….hmmmm. then ad rs ab and lele…
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my head is swirling
my head is swirling with info . not good info . but weird sorta bad/ gossipy info. i am not exactly sure what i know to be real and what is
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weird evening
what a weird evening. went to bed at 8. woke at 3ish. watched tv etc. went back to bed . ? sooo confused. weird odd feel very disillusioned with things. certain things. other things are good. i am just trying to figure out what is really going on
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my g-damned book
sign my godamned gbook please. am sitting home , sat eve. dinner at the indian place. yum. ch is here. guess where? i just went to the video store and rented a few videos- funny thing- i have not done that in years…years LITERALLY link to my old g-book-wow
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installed a guest book
i installed a guest book….please sign it. i need stuff to do. i ‘m bored. what can i write about? how about how i came here; well after traipsing about central america and mexico and colorado and asia attempting trying to find myself and the perfect “high”( at the same time?)..i ended up overdosing on…