im none too aware when it comes to big business and all its drama;...but that said, thanks to wamu , i did learn to create a sort-of "prick-ur-ears" personal-filter for anysuch news.. which may directly impact me.. and so of Yahoo... I am not REALLY following the recent accounts of the apparent faltering of the interent icon, except for the fact that yahoo owns flickr - whom hosts a shit load of my images - some of which im pretty sure don't exist anywhere else except on flickr servers..
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Learn How easy it is to Format (set-up) your external harddrive to start backuping your mac: Open Disk Utility.( Inside Applictaions folder- is Utilitis folder- open to find Disk Utility) The disk utility window looks like this: Select your backup drive from the list on left( mine is the orange one)and click the “Partition” tab.
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Macupdate hearts Postbox.
after being perplexed at my comments being deleted on on postboxs’ forums..and feeling unfairly represented and voiceless after Sherman Dickman “cleansed” me and other users feedback..deeming it Abusive (it was hardly so)-i had posted feedback on macupdate’s site, which i thought was a neutral app updater site for my fellow mac peoples..
not so much-
i logged in yesterday to find all my feedback deleted ,there, too- along with a handful of other users postbox feedback-
seems Sherman Dickman is in terrible fear over my thoughts. funny that.
- I’ve since looked into the macupdate site and found some rather interesting facts about its owner:
(it’s all a little dis-hearteneing and eye-opening)
macupdate
Sherman Dickman, ceo of Postbox, deleted my account on their customer support forum – and my posts- for what he has deemed abusive posting.
FIrst off, let me say , i have been a freelance web dev/fixer for 12 years-which means i test alot of software and i am online alotalotalot -constantly sourcing out cool new apps to help streamline my life and work AND enhance my clients web experience- i test tons – yet most never go further than a test- So when i actually do purchase an app- i have really thought about it-
The instances of finding great, buy-worthy “paid” apps-that dont have a free/open-source/shareware counterpart, is rare.
but when i happen on one that i decide to purchase..it’s a whole THING..for me.. buying these smaller apps that really are cool and useful:
because i feel just a little closer to my community. by getting the chance to support my peers-*
cases in point: panic-,rogueamoeba or obdev
And more than not- my user exp. with most purchased apps /companies has been amazing- so i will continually pay for upgrades-and if appropriate, promote them to clients-
That’s not to say i haven’t ended up regretting some purchases-I def. have- Yet , never once have i felt the need to express or post negativity online about these companies -Until my postbox exp,
But then again. ive never felt like i was being dismissed- censored and then misrepresented without being able to defend my points.
below is the post mr.dickman has published on several user forums / boards , answering other postbox customers asking about my and (other users) deleted posts :
People may criticize the product, or disagree with our policies, that’s perfectly okay. But we draw the line on forum abuse, or when the ethics of the company are questioned as a means to an end. Not only do we delete those posts, but we also *ask the authors to leave.”
and here are the abusive comments:
MY DELETED COMMENTS:
( deemed by postbox as forum abuse)
i too automatically updated – to 2.0- thinking this what what i had actually paid for- i paid for this project because i felt it a viable alternative to mac mail-something ive been looking for forever- the fact that it was not free was fine- i didnt mind paying – but i am trully blown away by this policy -
When i purchased postbox- i believe i should have been clearly informed before purchase that they would be releasing an upgrade in three weeks-
-that i would have to pay for- therefore giving me the choice to wait and , essentially, not feel as though i paid to beta test their software for three weeks.
what a shame.
im so perturbed about this – really disappointing – as it seems very shady – especially when a response form postbox basically said- egged me on over this
(sorry the last post got cut off)- i was saying i received an email from postbox support over this issue-basically saying i paid the price of a pizza* for their software- and basically seemed to be very condescending- regarding my perturbed-ness..over being asked to pay again three weeks later-
and to just to back myself up ..( or beat a dead horse) found this comment from postboxs’ Sherman Dickman, that contradicts my experience:( found macupdate.com/users/Sherman_Dickman )
“we provided one with as much transparency as possible so people can make informed choices.”
nope, you actually didnt.
Forum abuse, eh? wow postbox should get in business with the chinese govt.
*: they didn’t ask me to leave- they sent an email telling me ‘your user account has been deleted along with all your posts’
I am so devasted by the death of the doggie Lamma-aka-Helmie- the helmunster…. …so sad that i havent been able to write a post about him and aboout how he affected me- i cant even really do it now.. but here’s an attempt: Helmie and i met during one of my saddest periods in life…and from the first tme we had eye contact: him looking up at me w/ his babydog eyes, and the pure joy he had ..whenever he saw me…saved my life- he loved me and NEVER faked he didnt.
never faltered from just wanting to “get small”
and,in my life, when shitty was shitty – it was always helmie i wanted to see.
he made me feel loved. and i cant stand that i wont see him getting all small as he pranced down the walk when i got there…or the forlorn glances when i was leaving..
Helmut Lohner i love you and thank you dloh, for bringing helmut into my life.
to this here website,(taintme)-The lifehacker.com site been the absolute fav/bestEver/ go-to site -barnone.
A source of much inspiration , frequent reblogging and general nerd/hack awesomeness …I’ve found projects that spoke to the hybrid nerd in me ..projects i would actually carry out- start to finish…The site filled a gap that is/was extremely specific to my personality type….( see here for a description…of the male vs of my type) This site was my golden ticket -Gina Trapina my willawonka -So , around a year and a half ago, when she…, Founder/Editor Gina ,handed over the rains, i was a little bummed..but still high on the few years of overindulgent fixes for my machack dependancy.. . i wasn’t that REALLY worried.. i mean it was the site …and i was intrigued- as the site had already become more a community feedback / multi-author depot- since it’s beginnings–mixing hardcore mac tweaks with google fixes and hand-crafted firefox addons.
I trusted the editor shift , as the new lifehacker flow that had been setup was starting to help me understand a lil about Ubuntu and even enjoying a little peecee knowledge, i was inadvertantly picking up -
But ..OFCOURSE as with all good things…..lifehacker was not to be as it had once been…slowly…..well not to me…in my hyper vs.-the shift was immeadiate..but regardless of my minds’ over-dramtization, a shift of heavy peecee leanings variety has taken place-
i noticed whenever i opened my feedreader..anticipating a daily project/fix/fact….i increasingly found myself feeling annoyed-as i was seemingly more-than-not greeted with “No New Posts” or posts tagged “Windows Only”
- at first i was second guessing myself- thinking/rationalizing my annoyance at my own sillines…Due to Gina’s over-indulgent mac favoritism…and i just needed to get used to the new editor’s balance of pc/mac posts…
but it has been well over a year since Gina handed it over- and although im sure there are many new lh fans and many old fans pleased-as-punch about the flavour shift… sadly- i am not one- and today, with a sad finger.. i finally hit my delete subscription button-because not only do i rarley get any subscribed feed updates(mac) – but this is the the last one i got , prior to hitting the FAIL button:
In (very weak) defense of my vice:
cigarettes are my vice – my only defense is when you are all having wine with dinner or scotch or sake…i dont get to.
so i have a smoke. sometimes two-
i love smoking but hate what it is.
weak defense . terrible and ugly(maker) habit.
nowadays smoking is like picking your nose in public-
sneaking outside a restaurant/bar for a smoke you are hard pressed to find a light , let alone a smoking buddy.
damnit.
first pack of smokes i bought? A very planned deliquent act…stood outside Macs' Milk..specifically waiting for someone who looked like they were buying smokes..then followed them in…and nervously memorized her order…..
then waited a safe(?) few minutes and went and asked for them,
as nonchalantly as an 13 yr old buying
"benson and hedges delux ultra light 100's"
can be.:
how about that for the beginning of my smoking career/karma….
Difficult, embarrasing, hard and terrible aftertaste.
and it still is.
Him:’what’s the difference between a ferrari and a hard-on?’
Her:’uh..dont know’
Him’I dont have a ferrari right now’
John Givins Creelman and me
This time of year- School starting time, i mean… always puts my “life-plans” thinking cap on.
or ‘mind racing’ thinking cap , is more like it.
where am i ?
what i have done since last September.. or since the last time i had school to start tomorrow…
..Or since i forgot what i really wanted for my life.
it can deplete me , overwhelm me and inspire me – not to do art…but to plot .. none of which are necessarily bad or good things.
but very interesting and a bit bizarre…. in that cosmic joke of the universe kind of bizarre.
See a few years ago i had a fantastic weight lifted from me when – after a lifetime of JUST KNOWING id have tons of kids…. i had a fully life altering revelation:
that i was maybe not going to do that- (have a zillion kids)-but i was going to be more than OK just being auntie AL.
The godmother-video game dealer, potty-mouth joking secret keeper one in the lives of friends kids
and it was a GREAT fucking feeling..one that i was OK with.
really, truly SOOO OK with..until now…
which makes this admission, about new feeling of late , soooo confusing. and kind of annoying..
as i somewhat shamefully (?) admit to myself , that im beginning to have more and more thought spirals like:
“OM GAWD I WANT TO HAVE KIDS … …” …and whether they are purely physical -based in a true biological clock that apparently ticks louder for ladies of my age.. or if it comes from visiting a town where all my oldest friends either have “them”, are trying for them or are in the plans for them via injections or adoption …basically, it’s all kids all the time but perhaps the key to this manic inducing shift in me …has been the insidious love i find in my relationships with the amazing kids i have in my life – from age 2 to 15 – all people i think about , even talk to all the time. they have tainted me
or perhaps
ii think the shift was tipped this week after a visit from an older never married/no kids family friend -An extremely beautiful , fun, inspired woman, in her late 60s -about to travel to Tunisia or Timbuktu or some shit… all happy single short silver hair ..and psyched to to do this trip. -to eatlovepray around the world…all wonderful wonderment- inspiring even- Yet after she left-i suddenly panicked…i realized i didn’t want to be her. not at all.
i want do to do the trips and all, eat-pray etc.. but after the gap fill.
and truthfully , the deductive reasoning to find the cause of my change of heart just doesn’t matter , because it is so present , its like not really of my choice.
i known mostly because it’s late,(1am)- on the night before school starts for all my favorite kids.. and im up thinking about all of them tomorrow morning…with new school supplies and the nerves and the chaos of their parents …and im envious.
its just a gap i didn’t think i would feel. and i do .
and i am scared shitless of it all
the trappings that go along with the baby making life.there are so many. starting with partner in baby making . ending with new person forever attached to you
and if its what i do want. the most terrifying part for me is who ill have to become immediately:
A cliche.
that media played-out role of girl approaching “that age” ..scrambling to get the gap filled. literally.
so fuck ,..now im kinda fence sitting in limbo as auntie AL and leaning into a potential “mom”
and it comes with a new load of questions to obsess on, including, but not limted to:
What’s a kid filled relationship like? are they truly HAPPIER overall with the kids?
honestly, though, i know most of the answers.
-the real complicated answers that i live vicariously through my closest friends-
they are constantly exhausted, feel under appreciated, taken advantage of, annoyed,
but… they have these purposes …these little mini’s that they are helping shape
….and these minis in turn, are shaping them back.
thats the coolest part -
pretty heavyyy shit -that from here looks beautiful and scary and makes me feel hopeful and very lonely…..
….to be continued