going out, doin stuff

looking forward to going out this eve., which is not normal (of late, anyway..);Ajp is coming over at 7:30 and we’re going up the street. then to dinner and then party(?).. if i make it that far. i am still feeling kinda weak. this illness-whatever it is- is lingering in the most annoying way.had breakfast […]

fucking fantastic weekend

what a fucking fantastic weekend i have had….thursday eve i met jk ,ie,ab, liza ,lel and ag for dinner-then ie mjk ag and i went to crazy girls(??!!) it was really fun(ny) mjk is so much fun-then spent all day friday up at his house by the pool – swimming etc.then he cam e to […]

relatively stress-less

my life feels full and good right now-it is all based on the relationships i have in my life- they are all relatively stress and maintainence free. i think  this is the first time in my life i don’t have high maintainence people around me-like when i got freaked and stressed today everyone around me […]

viper-room and rs/gap thingy

went to see a band at the viper room on tuesday..w/ ie and candace and billy and draven and a few others i just met.hung out with j at ie’s for a minute-very nervous and uncomfortable(felt ‘set-up’)had fun at rollingstone/gap thing on thursday eve.brian was there- always have fun with him.met the sexiest man -well..didn’t […]

offline

wow. been offline for a week-crazy. good to be back, but a nessacary break.too much going on …and yet… not enough at the same time…ya fel me? went to laguna for the pageant of the masters on sunday; with Leland and famille…fun nice cool. tool was here last night. in sd this eve-we were going […]

good weird

haven’t written in so long-things are weird-good weird, i guess. i have noticed how much i have actually changed through this past year . i mean i know i ‘grew’ or whatever. but i am aware that , organically , i am different-my actual responses and actions and motivating factors are totally new and different.my […]

happiness

feel so much happiness right now-slept in -parties were lame. i was very shy as usual and felt awkward at the aids thing-then we left and went to the big party- someone at the first party asked me to go hear their friends band play at the martini lounge..ambrsea. how odd and random. would have […]

jlh leaving LA

jlh spoke this am. it was so sad and happy . i am so happy she is my friend. i trust her . ie was really upset and it was touching.brkfst at the coffee house, now to cb then jlh’s for one last gd’bye and then taking irwin and max on a walk and then […]

jlh is leaving today

jlh is leaving today-helped her move yesteday. had dinner with all her friends-then i drove mi home and went to plant of the apes at universal i max with ie and billy and draven. we had fun.i wasn’ going to go, but ie ‘persuaded’ me and i ‘m glad idid. even though i didn’t get […]

i am nuts

i am nuts-i feel like my mother is going to make me have a nervous bdshe doesnt do anything-it’s the buttons she pushes(she INSTALLED) by ……….breathing..

so much

so much -going to sb this weekend . mom is her. max staying with jc -i am a bit insane with everthing and everyone-but i feel good-saw et and b this am at urth. feel good. like i am free of something enormous. i am ready

dk came over

dk came over and hung out this eve. nice to see him. walked the dog-went up the street and met p with ss mj jo and mi-went to jones’s for dinner and then i went to ns’s to help plan his trip.he’s so funny. very much a perfectionist, i think. feel alright, albeit a bit […]