john maeda , via his site and  summations, has become  my_mentor.(byproxy)and this is noteworthy beeecause….??welll..ive been  a bit stuck in self pity nightmare , of late…embarrassingly due to my last client,James( who rules, btw) simply asking me for a link to a resume , so he cpould post it on his site.. Now, due to…

my own personal pergatory….help Iam stuck somewhere between my old version’fantasies’ and new _yet unrealized ones…hence: my own personal pergatory….By fantasies i mean what i wish for in my life :” i really want to be a fireman when i growup”…it referes to what i really ‘want’ for myself and /or can work towards ..…

…everythingl is funny and sad at the same timeright?kinda… went to the used at universal . seats( when we got there) were being occupied ) by some kids..no big deal, d was asking them to move…and we start into the row…as i moving past one of the girls , i say , as is my…

Perhaps i have  insomnia?, add?, lack of something….but for some reason..i ended up staying up way too late even though im exhausted…and perusing local blogs. i dont do this often anymore..seemed for awhile it got to be less interesting when every teenager in asia started a blog and id somehow end up on those…but with…

its hot out. but what makes it hotter is the screaming hassidic woman that lives in front of me. its unreal ..TOTALLY ..unreal.She screams ALL DAY.. in a terriffiying-shrill-higher-as-she-gets-rolling-pitch.Its been going on since she moved in. ( 2.5 years) its awful.devasting , actually. Somedays i can tolarate it. on others, i feel like killing …..and…

welcome what it was like; well idont know if i was born an alcoholic addict- i do know that everyone in my mother and fathers family are riddled with addictions…so i come by it honestly. my childhood was idyllic in setting- loving upper middle class hippie mom and dad, who loved me very much and…

sunday night :the bestballet this evening. the spazmatics dance moves seemed especially choreagraphed and were dazzling. the first set of ‘guest’ dancers were AWEsum.reminiscent of ..say… ‘melissa ethridge’ typesthey were Just up there , rawkin around the band..focusing most of this awesome-ness on( of course)kevinmy fellow canadian, avril made a guest spot . Although shes…

i am presently overwhelmed with thoughts and am attempting to ‘write aboot it’ ..So i cant stop thinking about certain people and i have my platwe full and really cant afford the leasure -ly anxious worry time im so used to dwelling in..I need to focus on present tasks. But…i have this weird energy free…

figured it all out: the reason i dont believe that humans are supposed to be monagamous etc etc…See i know the truth because i wasnt brought up with tv..so ilearned from instinct. I am just now watching lots of movies and i noticed..specially today during above fore mentioned flick w/whitney…That i was getting pulled in…

woops: here’s the linkn to my crushes.embarrasment pagegoing to spazmatics…

remember that song on tom waites MULE…where hes got saws and shit in the background..saying’what is he doing over there..?” etc?? well my nights are reiminiscent of this..my upstairs neighbour is constantly ‘doing shit’ and walking the floor of the apt with heavy heels…running up and down both sets of stairs…And he’s up all the…

im completely thrown . i feel like i got sucked into an anxiety vacuum(?) and i have lost all my good thoughts. i was very grumpy w/mw last night. it just pisses me off when i feel like this and i dont know how to express it to anyone.i guess i sorta expect him to…