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cleaned like a true o/cd this am. mj is mia….fuck. yoga then going to mjk’s for dinner this eve. he’s making thai food. feel better today. last night i just wanted the weekend to be over. i get lonely(?) or something on the weekends. i really would like to go home for the holidays. i […]
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blah fucking blah. i am feeling sorry for myself. i am sad with pit feeling in my tummy. i am angry that i am alone and wistful. i hate being like this. i can’t stand that i still let myself be in this fucking place of darkness and pity. it really disgust me and i […]
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so confused. left rodeo to go home and wait for ch to come over and go for food. he showed up at 11 40pm…. went to swingers, but he’d already ate. then came in and ate cake and had tea. played with max. lay around blah blah. felt . . i dunno. right now i […]
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pissed rain..vancouver-style today. i slept through the meeting and it was great. hil and ns came over and we had coffee and then we read tarot cards(?) went to swingers for lunch -chintoe met us as did ie and ns1 and ah went home and worked till 7ish . ch came by for a visit.talked […]
went to hear lala
went to hear lala speak-amazing..z and av were there. weird how things change like that.ss and ns and lala and hil and i went and ate at ie’s and watched him on felicity. then we(me ie and la) went to mjk’s ,brought him food and watched movies.
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time to figure out what i want: a nice stable income and LEGAL staus. a loving sweet gorgeous sexy boyfriend who is madly inlove with me and i him. to quit smoing easly and without gaining anyweight
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i am at ie’s right now with lala and ie and irwin. all day i was stuck infront of the computer..working . forgot what it feels like. alittle brain dead…now i am bored and hungry. but i think i have just been looking forward to something -who knows what- and there seems to be nothing […]
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if there is such a line between insanity andd sane-ness…i sat in a room this evening where it would have been drawn. from where i sat , in some what saness i watched across the floor as completely insane people spoke in ways that sort of made sense. i spoke at a meeting and the […]
the fine line
if there is such a line between insanity andd sane-ness…i sat in a room this evening where it would have been drawn.from where i sat , in some what saness i watched across the floor as completely insane people spoke in ways that sort of made sense.i spoke at a meeting and the sharing afterwards […]
odd/cool week
odd/cool week. could not get into work at all. got back to meetings (lc) hung out with cute boy a bit…he seems endeared by ol’ max , at least. he’s very cool and sexy – nice to be talking with someone completely new. pissed rain yesterday-vancouver style. it was so nice ’cause i had the […]
laughing in bed after vegas
week of still being on holiday sort of. went to vegas with lala n hh ..met the boys there . went to u2-amazing concert. the night before i left ch called me- kinda cool convo. then went to hotel with the girls and had a full on slumber party- ordered every dessert on the menu- […]
still being on holiday
week of stillbeing on holiday sort of.went to vegas with lala n hh ..met the boys there .went to u2-amazing concert.the night before i left ch called me- kinda cool convo.then went to hotel with the girls and had a full on slumber party- ordered every dessert on the menu-did ‘masks’ in our pj’s and […]